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Jean, 29091988I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Friday, June 30, 2006
*..a simple dae..* Jean saes. todae is fridae. damn.have to go work again tml. shakehead. was tellin hon that im tryin to change into a non grumpy person. i call complain less frm now on.lol. todae stressed dae. my projects.shakehead. cocked up. my surveys. cocked up. all thanks to miss sue lou. (you are welcomed~) got veri veri veri stressed up and farked up and stucked up. so much things to do. and the bloody dateline is like 2 weeks away. haiis. i cannot afford to lose marks for projects. dunno la. freakin no time le.im feelin so helpless. haiis. meet up with longyun n alloysius.lol. longyun coming c4 to work le.wahahah. shiok sia.Riverside gatherin. somemore dage wont be around. they can pei me ba. after that went biz park eat.slack abit. went lib to slp.shakehead. super tired.super shag.super headache. dunno why also. oh yah.voting thingy started le. haha.todae heard some interesting things frm my dear qingcai korkor. lmao. they all ask me why i didnt sign up to run BSC. shakehead. next year ba.=)) im gonna vote for Shawn n Qingcai! the rest i dunno yet.haha. went to check MR results! lolol. weet~! i didnt flunk my MR! i got a D! haha. yay~ though its not very good. but at least. its a pass. a motivation for me. =) ive got C for my MP.hahah.SHIOK!!! now left CB n FAOM.shakehead. i realli pray hard to God man. i realli dun wish to flunk any of my papers. went to sun plaza park. shakehead. alot of ants n stuffs again. very itchy. so sit awhile den went off le. a 3 million dollar question was being popped out on the trip home. haiis. hon suddenly became veri stoned. we had a good talk agaiin. =)) live and let live hon. u taught me that. =)) *hips dun lie* Thursday, June 29, 2006
*... Superman AGAIN...* Jean saes. lol.todae APEL claz was SOoOOo fun! hee.someone kept kena shoot by me. todae so much laughter in class. Once in the blue moon i will have the chance to be entertainment for the class. who ask todae's APEL topic so interesting? Dating and Sex.LOL. haha.guess all of us had a good laugh in claz todae.=) lec was like hell man.haiis. after school went opposite. met up with neeky,edmund and another joesph. den i pon my jap clas. shakehead. nth much to do lo. slack around. realli too freakin tired. went tm to watch superman again! haha. never fail to entertain. suddenly realise the theme song is veri nice huh.lol. but halfway i fell asleep for a few mins.haha. not that the show was boring. but cos i was too tired le. =) nth much lo. after that they went home. hon send me home. sat under my block. watched some videos. lol.watched one part of 'Hostal' WTF! SUPER GROSS LA! shou bu liao. den went prata shop eat dinner. saw mummy n her fren there. den mummy's treat to dinner. lol.weet. had some emotions jux now. being veri grumpy. lol.but not that bad la. then here i am. at home. nth to do again. haiis.tml release of MR test. sure flunk!!!! *poster gal - backstreet boys* Wednesday, June 28, 2006
*...Superman...~!* Jean saes. todae sch is a total freakin waste of time.lol. mornin went to sch met hon. went opposite slack.den neeky came. went for MR class. fun siak. lots of laughter.lol. todae is Sheryl's birthdae. HAPPY BIRTHDAE SHERYL!~ i love ur pinky finger~ hee~.SOoOO cute~~ =X suppose to do FAOM after claz. but our cute little claz rep forgotten to bring b/s.lol. SooOO.. went of to 200+ for lunch. den went TM watch Superman.lol. it was so much better than i had expected. lol.freakin long movie! almost 3hrs. came out of the cinema with my butt aching. haha.hon was so excited abt the movie.shakehead. but the movie was not bad overall.=)) exciting.touching.heartwarming. lol.4 unique names for my future kids.=X Kalell Ariell Chalell Rykell. cool right? hee. yay~ =)) taufiq! dun let ur future kids hav the same name as mine! lol. =X woot! cockroach in the toilet. wahahhahaha. i miss happy family. dunno how are they le. can onli see them during weekends. shakehead. haiis.dunno wad is happenin also. hopefulli we all can still be happy. i dun wan to quarrel. haiis. *wo you zui - wu ke qun* *...new blog skin...!~..* Jean saes. haha.check out my new blog skin man. is it nice? =X gosh.took freakin long to do. my damn tagboard!!! people.jux highlight my tagboard den u can still see the words. jux continue taggin k. ill find a way to fix the tagboard. alittle bit more troublesome.hee. i like this skin.though its a little too pinky. but its veri sweet. =)) todae.went sch for project. didnt go for macro. went to took mc.shakehead. this cant continue on man. think im dying.haiis. didnt went for BSG meetin. something cropped up suddenly. hav to go settle.haiis. met hon after that. had this 2881 thingy. break the code!!! wahaha!!! lmao la. freakin number 19. spoil all of our mood.shakehead! thgt u like 9 alot?? now give u 19! happy? haha. =X nth muxh todae. jiu zhe yang. =)) tml watch superman. =)) *shu da wu da yin wo - dage's version* Tuesday, June 27, 2006
*..school starts again...!..* Jean saes. 2 wks holidae end le.dots. shld i be glad or cry over it? first dae go back sch. so mani freakin things need to do le la. shakehead. nth much lo. whole dae kena suan by classmates. haha.fun. realise our class is gettin so fun man! todae FAOM tut. shitty man. the irritating lizards turned the whole class upside down. kns.hahah.realli disgusting la. Mr Paul Ng killed a lizard in the aircon thingy. LOL. SUPER GROSS!!! EEEYYYERR!!! argh.disgusting lizards!!! FAOM todae was fun. after sch.met hon. his phone survived the heavy rain.lol. suddenly can work again. at busstop met nic n joseph. nv talk with joseph.haiis. dunno la. went century.do nth again. food culture. den decided to go sun plaza park slp. lol.now i realise that place realli can slp siak. go there lie on the benches. wa.we realli freakin fall asleep siak. haha.realli super tired n shag. i freakinly only hav 2 hrs of slp ytd nite. super super shag. all the major projects. gonna reach dateline soon. 3 more weeks. 1 more mth holi daes again.haha.shiok! hon sae wanna go KL. dunno real or not.lol. see first ba. at home.nth to do. liping jie they all not online acc me. they now at suntec kbox. with taoyangui.xiaoqigui and daJean i think. dajie jux called me and sae somethings. shakehead.i duuno la. i dunno wad else i can do and sae. seeing dajie n xiaoqigui ok le. i realli feelin veri happy for them. =)) m0ore stress to come. haiis. *cai hong tian tang - liu geng rong* Monday, June 26, 2006
*...shootin dae..* Jean saes. well.todae went work. nth much.weather so nice to slp. realli dragged myself out of hse and go to work. reached convention centre. saw LIM SIJIE!! lol. shakehead.talk awhile with her lo. haha.she said the electronic side guys all sians sians de. of cos la! lmao. first half of the dae was sOooo freakin boring siak. den went lunch with rykiel n ferance. when to eat the noodle thingy. lol.damn nice! freakin nice! hahah. the chilli~ lol.BEST!! well.lychee gal.kns.lmao. some so called misunderstandings happened. den i kena kan or nth. thanks man~ still somemore sae wanna break siblinghood somemore. gosh. lawrence freakin broke my bilabong strap todae!!!! argh........................................... nvm la.its jux a freakin strap. after work.while waitin for the rest to come. that taoyangui realli made me taoyan him alot. he went to smoke. and he freakingly realli take the cigar n smoke! wtf.i was realli angry and i went over the seats to sit. realli disappointed. den he came over. apologising over some stuffs. initally dun wanna forgive him de. budden suan le la. frens ma.den forget it lo. wad to do. den went supper with taoyangui and xiaoqigui n my liping dajie. lol.lots of shootin sessions. people~ i realli raise white flag le. but jim was realli quiet jux now. think he is grieving abt his ex gf's illness ba. feelin sad for him too. i realli wish n hope n pray that liping n jim wont quarrel le. i realli wish that one dae we all sit down talk n laugh w/o shootin each other. happy family. ke yi ma??? carrefour realli farked up also la. realli against gals is it. either the gals are kns.or they too dao to be frens. then the rest all guys. wad to do??? farked up.lol. to jim dage (if u still wanna break siblinghood den sua lo) sorry to noe that ur ex gf is diagnosed with cancer. send her my regards. and.u didnt spoil the night. im sorry if i shoot u too much. no more next time k! haha. anyway.thanks for helpin me serve those mute customers jux now. realli thanks.=)) cheer up k. to liping dajie (lol.u are not veri old either.hee) u also mux smile more k. dun let those taoyan ghosts make u so stressed. hee.next sat we go eat together ok? pangseh rykiel.haha. no need alone le next time. as long as im in carrefour. go toilet also can call me k! =X dun worry.jux speak of anything to me. i'll lend you my ear. hee. well.i do miss you too! see? i told ya my blog todae gonna be long le. hee. huggies* mux stay happy at work k. dun miss me too much. =X to dage's xiaodi (you stupid taoyangui) dun be so irritatin leh. when u freakin wan make a blog? haha. well.the past den forget it la. no more next time le. ming bai ma!!! shou bu liao ni lehs. and. plz la.dun smoke. or else i tell lawrence. see how u die!!! and.dun freakingly ask me so mani damn qn at the same time.lol. erm.its over. but i dun wanna lose a fren again.plx. wa.realli alot of things happened in one freakin dae. but at least the dae ended with a smile. finalli. im back to my frens at work. =)) finally im not transparent anymore! YAY! tml sch reopen!YAY! many things to look forward to! hee. superman is screenin soon! YAY! =X where is my superman den? lol. *todae not listenin to songs.no mood.lol.* Saturday, June 24, 2006
*.....WEET!!!!...* Jean saes. lol.todae is another dae full of mixed feelings.lmao. early mornin wake up go sch for BSG meetin. in the end onli me n Kelly. the rest all late. shawn n gab freakingly still at home.lol. me n kelly realli boredom to the max! haha. todae meeting is realli the longest meetin ever we had in BSG! lol.den finish abt 2+. den went tm walk walk.shopping!!!lol. went to meet prettyboy at bedok platform. went down to town. hee.went to shop for my adidas jacket!!! lol.took so damn long to decide to buy or not! in the end cannot resist siak! hee.so happy!~ using my own hard earn money to buy stuffs. the feelin its realli different. cos u'll realli learn how to appreciate it.hee.  lol.. see?? hahah.YAY!~ my pretty jacket..~ hee.. lalala~ lol.had dinner. den came back to tamp. went slack around. some funny things happened.LOL.=X fun though. we looked as though we are quarrellin. both serious faces.lmao! went home. now feelin hungry again. haha.ask mummy to dabao back. but she's takin ages to come back. lol.yum yum. tml working.dots. boredom to max. Mondae back to sch!! yipee..~ hee. last part of my entry todae. is for the unknown person who had tagged on my blog. yea.whoever you are. it realli doesnt matter anymore. unknown: coz from the start u should not let them feel that they gt chance if u already u know they don't.. 23 Jun 06, 01:16 how wld you describe lettin them feel they hav the chance? i dun treat anyone especially well. neither had i did anythin special to anyone to make them Feel like they've got the chance. all im askin for people who are sincere and true as frens right frm the start. they also dun bother to ask anything. so wad is there more for me to sae? but wadeva it is now. it realli doesnt matter anymore. now i can realli see. who are those realli the ones. whom deserve to be wad i call 'Good Friends'. *ai wo de ren he wo ai de ren - chris you hong ming* Friday, June 23, 2006
*..rainy park..* Jean saes. todae afternoon took bus to sch. on bus.had this damn feelin that i wld see someone. and that person will board the same bus as me. so as the bus reaches the stop after 200+ there. i pop my head out.thgt that i wld see thian. den dun hav. den next stop. i pop my head out.thgt that i wld see ruiqi. den dun hav. BUDDEN! i saw a familiar face boardin the bus. its ruiqi.-__- he saw me.but yet pretend he nv SEE!! wtf!! den he sit opposite of me somemore. haiis.win liao lo. one by one.treat me like TRANSPARENT!!! haiis.dunno wad they are thinkin. is it that hard for someone to be ur fren w/o any motives? jux be my good fren.good listener.cant? haiis.wad is this world becomin to. did FAOM project.shakehead. everyone no mood to do lo. haha.in the end.rofl. all went off. went to meet my hon. hon was at tm. went for lunch cum dinner. den still freakin early. went down to pasir ris park to slack and chill. den it started to rain heavily. irritating frogs started singing their song of joy. lol.we had fun playin in the rain.=X so lovely.hee. lovely lovely lovely.=)) against all odds. i jux finished eating maggi. the feelin damn shiok!!! lol. hungry lehs.hee. anyways.todae mornin i got cut my hair le. ask the auntie cut short for me she dun wan. dots.so i now got cut same like nv cut.lol. i wan my adidas jacket!!!! no money. *sobs* *shi jie wei yi de ni- gary* Thursday, June 22, 2006
*..project dae..* Jean saes. woke up 5am+ in the morning. had this realli bad dream.shakehead. total nightmare. had a bad scare when i woke up. den i saw two blue black spots on both of my legs. PAIN PAIN PAIN!!! was it the dream? or was it the bladin i had ytd? *shivers* chills. reach sch around 12. did MR project. stupid SPSS. waste so much of my time.argh. so tired after the end of the dae. prettyboy waited for me to finish. den we went for dinner at food culture.(again).lol. nth much. after that went sunplaza park chill lo. no more itchness todae.lol. saw the family of cats n kittens again! so cute! lol. reach home so long until how. feelin abit dots. siblings slping. mum not back yet. dunno wher she go.wad she doin recently.dots. me facin com doin nth. MSN also sian. no one to chat also. hate this feelin man. SUCKS!! eatin oreo now. boredom to the max. my whole body still aching.haiis. tml project again.FAOM.haiis. sat i took off le.realli cannot tahan. sundae work.den mon sch start. all the stress will be comin back again.dots. LIFE!! Boonkiat jux chatted with me. sae he workin at MoMO. great.go there got ppl le.haha. i wan to DRINK DRINK DRINK!!!! chivas chivas and more chivas. i wan 5 on 1!! i wan graveyard!! *superwoman - gary* *... WOOT~...* Jean saes. woooo~ great dae todae! =)) early mornin wake up. went to meet weiguo at interchange. den took bus down to East coast. den we like dunno wher to stop. in the end took cab down.lol. met joe n doomie! damn! i miss them all so much! ate Macdonalds.lol. TWISTER FRIES!! =X den went BLADIN!! omfg!! first time ever in my life. always see ppl play till so shuang. its realli time for me to learn. always sae wanna learn.in the end always nv learn.shakehead. todae i realli had the feelin of bladin man! damn shiok! though i can hardly walk at first. now at least can walk abit and move around le! lol.kept fallin la.and my butt realli hurts like hell. looks like im suppose to fall on my knees or smthing? lol. mani thanks to the guys man. but they had like free entertainment frm me. cos they keep laughin at me.lol. stupid joe still lie to me.dots.lol. had lots of fun todae. den yewon called. shakehead. we all slacked at CoFFee Bean.CARAMEL! den all at first wanna meet town de. in the end all pangsehs.shakehead.*disappointed* doomie cycleed me to Bedok mrt.lol. tat one realli worsen my butt la! omfg. thanks alot pal.=)) den went to meet myprettyboy.=)) he acc me home.cos i reali need to bathe.lol. he waited for me like hours? =X sorry hon! =)) we two realli machiam like two homeless freaks. nowher to go. went for dinner at the same old place. same old qn pops out.LOL.dots. den went sunplaza park. someone keep feelin itchy all over. his hands and legs. made me broke my longest nail somemore! LOL are u feelin guilty hon?! =X den we saw this family of cats n kittens!! THEY ARE DAMN CUTE!! realli feel like goin over and carry all of them home siak!  CUTE MA??? OMG!! i realli wish my kitten was like this!! cannot tahan siak!! SOoooOO ADOraBle.~~ saw the innocent face??? OOoooMMMmmmGG.. =)) *Rompee - Daddy Yankee* Wednesday, June 21, 2006
*..rotting dae...* Jean saes. no work.no school.no project.no nothing. woo.at home slack all the way la. weather realli damn shiok to slp. so i nua all the way. kimfong called me.ask me take over shift for todae n tml. at suntec courts.kns.lol. den i sae not free.ahaha. lol.realli rot n rot. till abt 5plus den i went out to meet my prettyboy. went for dinner. den same qn of wher to go. lol.went pasir ris park again. went to the maze. lol.suppose to got there li siao ppl de. but todae no ppl there siak. not fun de. lol. well.todae nth much also. but im jux enjoyin the companion. =)) *huggies.* *caihongtiantang-liu geng hong* Tuesday, June 20, 2006
*..a dae with mixture of all feelings...* Jean saes. the dae started off quite well. mornin wake up.mummy was already yankin away on the phone. noisy siak.shou bu liao. woke up.prepare abit. den our family went to Tampines Safra to eat Sakura! weet!~ alot of things to eat lehs! haiyo.realli veri veri full after the meal. goodness gracious me. oysters.terriyaki chicken.sushi.sharkfin.salmon.ebi prawn.crabs.prawns. and mani mani mani mani more! lol.we had our fill. den some conflict btw mummy n sis.dots. spoil the happy mood. but after awhile alright le.haha. went to TM.lol. my prettyboy came along for the movie with my family. went to watch 'Garfield 2'. lmao.lame show lehs. haha.but most importantly my siblings enjoyed themselves. thats the most impt thing.=)) they went home after that. had 2 hours with my prettyboy. funny siak.we talked so much abt stuffs. den he walked me home. had a stop at the playround again.weet. den mummy called for the family meetin again. sians. sis called.and went cryin on the phone. reached home.almost all my aunts n uncles all at home. kns.said so much jiaoweis. realli cannot tahan them. haiis.yet i cant sae anything. realli veri fedup jux now. see mummy so agitated yet im like so helpless. haiis.dunno la. den everything over le. felt veri farked up. was abt to go jogging. den prettyboy called. he told me him and his brother jogged all the way frm pasir ris to tamp le. stunned. lol.that was realli a suprise. cos i didnt expect to see him again at nite. so i went to change and ran down to meet them. went to the wrong seven-eleven.lmao. his bro handsome wor! lol.but myprettyboy better.=X den he walked me home. went over to prata shop disturb my mum. den went over to sit at the playround. lol.seems like we realli like playgrounds huh. deprived of childhood.lol. den chat awhile den went home le. =)) felt so much better after seein him. thanks honey! well.overall for todae. its realli a dae with a mixture of mani feelings. but the dae ended with a smile at least. last part of my entry. some thoughts of the dae. due to me n prettyboy. ive lost a number of close frens. therefore the more i will cherish this relationship. mostly all these close frens are guys. but i told myself. if these ppl are ur true frens. they wld not be in such a way. if they are realli sincere n with no motives they are willin to be ur fren. den they deserve to be ur frens. so.if they were to leave my life. i'll tell myself. never to grieve over them. for they are not my true frens. lastly.to all the guys whom ive been together before. lol.ill show u guys that its ur loss for not cherishin me. no hard feelings though. life still goes on beautifulli.=)) i'll lead my happy life with prettyboy! *huggies* so prettyboy~it takes two hands to clap.=)) *fa ru xue-jaychou* Monday, June 19, 2006
*.. happy father's dae..* Jean saes. work todae. nth special. back aching all the way. buay tahan.haiis. dunno la. at this moment.feelin veri farked up. dunno why also. think i havin mood swing or smthing. kns.dun ask me why. work is boring. went to lunch with Rykiel todae. saw the management.gosh. dunno la.whole dae feelin damn farked up jiu shi le. i almost forgotten its fathers dae todae. until on sales floor i heard frm the customers. den i go around wishin the guys happy fathers' dae. lol.how does father love feels like? fiq told me its something complicated. they show compassion in strangest ways. often shows anger.but is actualli a mirror between their love for us. well.sounds interestin to me. yet i can onli imagine. imagine in my dreams? dream of it? argh.haiis. daddy.wher are you? *hui dao guo qu- Jay zhou* Sunday, June 18, 2006
*...freakin dae..* Jean saes. todae went to work. met myprettyboy on train. he acc me down to cityhall. cos he's goin for dance competition at PS with his frens. found myself draggin my feet to work. realli feelin tired and worn out. like that lo. den damn farked up. kns.my jeans buckle came off. cannot put back. gave me such a headache. in the end? hav to put down the battle and go talk to mok. -_-.in the end i thgt things wld be better for us. in the end still remains the same. guess no matter wad happens. we wont be how we used to be as good frens le. haiis.i realli dun farkin understand why things turn out to be in such a way. but there is realli nth else i can do le. went to Girdano bought this jeans. 69$.freakin expensive.dots.suan le lo. den realli got the heart to work.shakehead. myprettyboy waited for me for 4 hours. damn.when was the last time any guy had waited for me for hours? becos he miss me? =)) i appreciated that so much.realli. after work. walked down to bugis and took train. went back to tamp. bought Macdonalds with twister fries.yay! den walked to the playground sit and eat. well.i was realli stunned when i saw his watery eyes. gosh.we had a good long talk again. and we had made a little small agreement btw us. didnt we? =)) *more than words* Saturday, June 17, 2006
*..Silent Hill...* Jean saes. todae nv go work. last min got thing on.shakehead. tml sat.ferance n lawrence back le. auntie jenny sat also no work. so tml its like gonna be back to the past le.=)) todae.weet.watch silent hill with my prettyboy. nice and creepy show. lol.122mins.sit until my butt pain todae.lol. well.came out of cinema. saw ruiqi.as usual.he is with gals. so yup. he saw me with fiq. great!=)) den outside the open area. worst still. saw fate's uncle and nephew. omfg.kns.haiis. todae realli suay siak. zhenshide. wadeva lo.shoubuliao. its none of my biz anymore also le. after movie. we had such a headache thinkin of wher to go. den we went pasir ris park again! back to the place wher we had been to one week ago. hee. tonight its such a STARRY nite. omg.the number of stars tonight realli realli countless le. its been so long i ever last saw such beautiful sky le. realli happy. =)) you made me a happy girl. seein others living happily. i told myself. dun live in misery anymore. its realli time for me to walk out of everything. and i am.yes i am. slowly with my pretty boy. =)) *muacks..* *数到五答应我-cao ge* Friday, June 16, 2006
*....Great DaE!!...* Jean shouts. BSG OOI~~ lol! todae is the big dae for us! for the BSG Senior and Junior Main Comm. weet. at first attendance didnt realli turn out that fantastic. we were all like sians half. den made alot of last min arrangements. the BSG dae started off as usual. lol. we all had lots of fun. be it sub com or main com. they were realli realli sporty. realli have to thank all the people who had made this a successful dae. BSG ROACKS!! so much laughter todae. seems that our theme 'Bond as One'. we realli made it le. WE hav proven to Miss Tan. "YES!! WE DID IT THIS TIME!!!" photos too tired to upload.tml k? i promise.hee. prettyboy came to sch todae.lol. he went LT inside waited with me till my event was over. went down to the New Cathay. wanting to watch 'Silent Hill'. den in the end.SOLD OUT. haha.went back to Tamp again. lalala.ate Long John.weet. den walked to our usual place again. lolol. temp increase to 130 degrees celsius? =X weet. tired.tired. my head bursting. i go slp le.nite. *shu dao wu.da ying wo. - Cao Ge* Wednesday, June 14, 2006
*...damn dae..* Jean screams. ARGH!!! bored to death dae. went to work.all off todae.kns. no one pei me talk. no crowd. no sales. stupidity. did lots of cleanin todae. nth better to do ma. den clean clean clean lo. went to lunch with razif. den we like bettin when 'Superman' starts screenin. lol.i said '29th June'.he insisted on '25th June'. cos i rmb that time with fiq they all buyin tickets to watch movie. me n fiq were squabbling abt the dates or smthing.hee. but i sold one high end blender and one high end jucier though. haha.quite an accomplishment siak.hee. ytd nite i didnt turn up for mok's birthdae. was feelin quite bad. but nvm. i realli dun wan any nonsense again. thats why i chose not to go. thousand apologises to them. hopefulli they understand. if they are angry with me other this. they dun deserve me den. haiis. i msg mok wish him happy birthdae. he sae he realli drank le. apologise for not being able to reply full msg. -__-. i accept that. todae also no msg tellin wadeva things. disappointment. good friends become like this stage. reallii wu hua ke shuo. haiis.suan le. laoer birthdae i put aeroplane. mok's birthdae i put aeroplane. jux im well known for puttin aeroplane by them le. great. nth else for me to sae le. i shall lead my life as usual. with my pretty boy and gang. yea.i realli hope so. haiis.nite. *cai hong tian tang - liu geng hong* Monday, June 12, 2006
*..worRk!!!...* Jean saes. lol.workworkwork! but heart not at work. dunno fly wher le.lol. shakehead. all the carrefour ppl noe wad i did 'last summer' till todae still talkin abt it.haiis. PEOPLE DO MAKE MISTAKES! argh. now.total there is two people treatin me as though ive eaten glass all my life. IM TRANSPARENT! great.thanks man. dunno wad they are thinkin also. haiis.no comments. todae got this freshie came.Mervin is his name. thanks man.he kept shootin me. call me 'auntie jean'.rofl. that little rascal. 16 yrs old onli got this 2 years long relationship. *claps* lol.he frm Woodlands Ring Sec. finally got ppl noe wher the hell is Riverside le.rofl. Kim Fong came down todae.lol. he asked me to train mervin.woot. think so highly of me. and dammit lawrence. told me HS109 frm Holland.thanks arhs. its frm CHINA! lol. make me so paiseh la.dots. that Auntie Jenny.dots. tml mux buy herbal tea 'por' her liao.rofl. mervin saes she nags alot! lol. poor mervin. another thing.kimfong told me. i wont be transferrin le.haha. is it a piece of good news? i used to think its great. but now.thinkin back. probably transferring wont be a bad thing. cos i realise me n this grp frm frens. seems to be driftin le. dunno why also. haiis.nvm. met fiq after work.=)) went to mac to hav supper. which i didnt eat. and now im feelin hungry.lol. we talked abt some stuffs ya. had some great laughs over SOME issues! lmao. went to the playround n slack.=)) walked home. everythin seems great. *huggies..* *ai wo bie zou - Jay Chou* Saturday, June 10, 2006
*...NEW BLOG skin! weet!..* Jean saes. LOL.YAY.new blog skin! rofl.spend so mani hours realli do this shit. haha.quite happy siak.hee.=X nth much todae. stone at home till 3+. den when out meet fiq. thanks arhs.late again. lol.took his specs.(finally) den went to town. like long time no go town walk walk le. at first sae wanna find the other joseph in Lido de. den cant seem to find him. lol. went McCafe todae! miss that place! hee.though no cAraMeL for me todae. lol.had a great talk with fiq.=)) went back to century square for dinner. he walked me home. and off he went home for his soccer.lol. nth much.so here i am addin this entry. frm sunday onwards.ill be workin daily. shakehead.gonna be veri shag. well.cant wait for thurs though.=X mondae shaohong's birthdae. still thinkin twice and thrice to go or not. anyway.last part of my entry. i think i need to apologise to someone. jux take it that im makin assumptions and stuffs. cos you never speak of anything to her. but the sudden withdrawn of distance frm me made me feel uncomfortable. plx dun do stupid things. it doesnt help. theres so much more in Life for you to look forward to. she is not worthy of you. somethings cant be forced. dun ask yourself why. dun ask her why. sincerely apologising frm the bottom of my heart. im sorry. *gei wo ni de ai - tank* Friday, June 09, 2006
*...long dae...* Jean shouts! yahoo~!HARD GAY!! lol! shiok siak! end of papers le! omg. realli feel so much more relief after the paper. CB paper todae was alright for me. choose 2 out of 3 structured questions. think i got too excited or wad le. i went to did all 3 qns! shakehead.bloody waste my freakin time.haha. after paper at 0945.WOOT! FREEDOM! went opposite to eat with fiq n neeky.(as usual) den sit down there talk cock and slack awhile. saw louis guyson n fuhao. went back to lib to slack. on the way back.saw fungwee and daphne. lol. erm erm.haha. went back sch.den saw steph n joanne. lol.talked to them awhile. den they went off for test. went lib sit and sleep awhile. lol.got caught on the camera by neeky.rofl.  Fallin in love is like a battlefield. Love is a perception more than explanation. when to watch movie AGAIN.haha. den wait for fiq's specs den i went home le. sleep and stone whole dae. reach home go MSN. to realise that news travel all the way to Jurong to Joe's ears in less at 5hrs. wOW man.its more efficient that DHL.rofl. well.haiis.alot of misunderstandings had been goin around. though no one has been sayin anything. but everyone is makin assumptions. i dunno wad to do or sae. or probably i should just vanish into the thin air or something. haiis. i dunno. was bathing jux now. den i started to play with the shampoo! LOL. hee.started makin bubbles out of the shampoo.rofl. like kid siak. deprived of childhood. i enjoyed myself though.lol.=X dui le.almost forgot. laoer birthdae celebration todae. sorry everyone.i dun feel like goin down. paiseh le.keep askin me to go i nv go. realli no mood le. somemore so mani ppl le. less me one person doesnt make a diff.=)) enjoy urself guys ya.=)) *shi jie wei yi de ni - Cao Ge* Thursday, June 08, 2006
*... ONE MORE FREAKIN PAPER TO GO!!..* Jean saes. yay.one dae more to go. to the end of misery. ive worked hard. if i still flung. thanks man.i realli dunno wad to do le. todae.heavy rain.dots. went to meet fiq to study. den sit at starbucks. all of us no mood to study siak. den pei him go make specs. saw his ex-gf.stun.lol. he took so freakin long.-__- den louis came. ROFL.he no voice! we realli had a great time laughin at his misery.lol. sorry louis! =X lunch at century food court. neeky came along. went pasir ris. took consumer behaviour textbook frm crystalbelle. neeky sae he got one fren at pasir ris also. called 'Tinkerbell' wtf siak neeky. hahaha.=X study stone talk cock. with cats.louis's favourite. rofl. home at last. nth much also. well.ytd nite. was quite fed up. haiis.why all the ppl wanna avoid me. always make till so farkin obvious. haiis. todae jim told me laoda not quittin le. after all the nonsense and trouble. he now sae dun quite le.wtf. haiis.i realli dunno la. all these ppl.haiis.nth i can do le. haiis.am i the one creatin all the trouble? wozhendehaolei. i realli wish to go MIA for the period. *ai wu li-kelly poon* Wednesday, June 07, 2006
*..wad a dae...* Jean sighs. todae MR paper.dots la.shakehead. dunno can or not also. after paper. went opposite sit and rot for a few hours. the bloody weather is realli makin us melt. had a pretty hard time on decidin wher to go. shakehead. nic n ed went cut hair.ha. me fiq n thian went tm walk walk around. amuse ourselves with the toys.rofl. took some retarded videos.lmao. shakehead.todae realli rot till cannot rot. realli no place to go. wanted to watch movie again at first. haha.but three daes in a row. alittle retard isnt it? so we decided to go to the beach! end up onli me fiq n thian went down to pasir ris beach. walked past downtown east. saw a performance corner. stunned!the germany guys will so cool man. they were doin the high rise thingy.omg. damn cool to the max! memories ya. haiis.we all started to stone. fiq had some probs. see him like that. i feel the heartache for him man. cheer up brother.=)) sittin down there for hours. stonnin.talkin.slackin. realli hope that time wld be longer. but it wont allow me to. watched the sunset. its bee quite some time ive since last watched it. dinner.home.thats all. fri is laoer birthdae celebration i think. but.no one asked me abt it again. so.nvm ba. its ok. take it that ive forgotten den.=)) nth special dae. but. feelings in the heart. cant put it in words. realli tired. realli afraid. realli scared. nite. *Everytime i close my eyes - Babyface* Tuesday, June 06, 2006
*...exams crazy....* Jean screams. im realli goin crazy due to all these tests.omfg. ytd was FAOM and macro paper. FAOM was like so cheat man! study so much mostly all nv come out. dots.waited and wasted so many hours for the macro paper to start. haiis.macro i went in with nothing on hand. and was the first to leave the test room. how well can i score? realli moodless siak.haiis. after the paper. i felt even worst man. den taufiq wanna go watch movie. in the end we watched 'benchwarmers' instead of 'she's the man'. the show realli rofl siak. every seconds you will be finding yourself laughing like hell. great movie.worth the money and time. at least all of us had a good laugh and released our stress.haha. at nite was the worst man. went home.didnt realli sleep. wash and change.went down to study with joseph all the way. until around 12+ nic and taufiq came along to join us under my block. they ton all the way siak. respect! i realli cant do that. didnt realli finish studying. woke up todae to find myself all shag and worn out. walked over to joseph's area to meet up with them. den we took bus to school. suffering frm information overload man. haiis. realli veri xin ku.dots. went in for the paper. kns.alot nv come out again. haiis.to think that all of us struggle so hard to study.dammit. alright man! time to relax le. hours ond hours of studyin realli got all of us crazy. went to the library. cable tv sofa there. we all just laid on the floor and start flowing into our dreams. sleep and sleep. weet.woke up to be seh seh. hahha.slack around for some time. to realise that its still so early. damn.den we all went off for movie again! haha.todae was 'She's the man' finally man.taufiq got to watch the movie that he wanted. haha.movie was not bad. a veri sweet and funny movie overall.=)) rain rain and rain.shakehead. den we all headed home from TM. went home.slept at 5+. damn.it realli was tiring. den jux got to wake up. bathe dinner.den meet joseph to study MR. and now.im sittin under my block. not studying.but bloggin. hahahs. tireed.yawns. well.got another piece of bloody news. faizal got admitted to IMH. argh.another fella. haiis. and~someone else got discharged from the hospital too. and he is not msgin me to apologise for those messages he had send. yea.thanks man. as the saying goes. a leapord will never change its spots. it just speaks so well of him ya. omfg. this realli clearly reflects how WELL mankind can be. haiis. wowuhuakeshuole. haiis.seein the people around me happy. im feelin glad for them. yet at the same time. im feelin heartache inside. hurts. wads the feelin of being in love? i realli lost those feelings. numb to all these shits. gettin pretty tired. OFF to STuDY.hopefulli. 2 more to go. haiis. nite!  Sunday, June 04, 2006
*.. seeing the Light oF FAOM...* Jean saes. lol.Financial Aspects of Marketing. woot.took off todae jux hoping to study real hard. second reason to take off is cos wanna give him some space to think ba. since he realli wan to keep a distance. ta shen me dou mei dui wo shuo. all is im hearing frm others de. suan le.let him chill ba. met taufiq and louis to study. damn.they are late. thanks man. guys are foreva late!!argh! lol.louis is a pig.rofl. went to starbucks. saw fungwee and daphne. studied at the table next to them. wa.first time i realli studied so hard. think its realli being motivated by my frens and my SPSS. rawr! hee.=X good for me man. realli need to increase my pathetic GPA. damn.lol. soon.our 'passion' for studyin fade again. started to get stone n restless. went for lunch cum dinner at Long John. went walked walked. was intendin to watch movie de. in the end no time slot. SooOO.went to coffeebean. sat down there and TRIED to study. haha. in the end.lol.all stonning la. den 7+ started to walk home with taufiq. louis went the other way. on the way back.talkin abt some 'spiritual' stuffs.lol. goosebumps* haha. came home.rest awhile. Joseph came back frm work. met him to study awhile and to return his FAOM textbook. and shit.i still hav macro paper tml la. haven even touch anything man. shakehead. think its like test period. den veri little people online. shakehead. so bored la. wad to do? dots. hao ba.thats all for now. ciao. *climbing the walls - Backstreets Boys*  *.. humans...* Jean goes. *strawberri-yish* lol.=X todae.yawns.work lo. reached earlier todae.haha. philips got one more promoter came down. kelvin.omg.i knew his name. i was like 'wtf' kelvin again.dots. todae everyone like so moody. they kept talkin abt wad happened at evergreen that dae. omfg.haiis. realli great mistake. jim was like talkin to me. tellin me some stuffs. den i realised mani things. omg. den someone like purposely leng luo me. wa.win le. haiis.i dunno la. wad he doin also.shakehead. laoda came down todae.suppose to go for his sis weddin. but er.i nv go.-__- dunno la.now work.like so dots.dunno why also. haiis.nth to sae also. haha.thian they all tio some daiji todae. shou bu liao. chill guys.lol. took off tml.gonna study real hard. was gettin pretty worried todae for my paper. meetin thian for breakfast tml. take FAOM book frm him. yawns.another long dae to go. nth to blog also.sians man. im onli a normal human with 2 eyes 2 ears 1 nose 1 mouth. but why do guys.argh. im jux a normal gal. lookin for her own dreams. haiis. i realli dun understand man. *kiss goodbye - wang lee hom*  Friday, June 02, 2006
*..its been such a long time i ever got so high..* Jean screams. ytd night nv blog.haha.cos.too high liao.rofl. ytd sch as per normal lo. BSG meetin with my freshies till about 7+. den i went down PS meet shaohong they all. saw lawrence.he todae last dae le.shakehead. see la! so mani ppl last dae recently.haiis. dunno why also.dots.nvm. den together with vincent shaohong ahbee. went down to singapore shopping centre. not science centre k.rofl. den went to that evergreen (i think) wait for the birthdae girl and the rest to come. weet.chivas.omfg.drink so much ytd nite. shaohong.2 jims.lawrence.ferance.irene.ahbee yen they all. so much fun singing and drinkin. hao jiu mei na me high le. wo zhen de hen kai xin. though quite many nonsense when on. but.haiis. did a terrible mistake which i should not do. but.haiis.nvm. wo zhen de hen kai xin. its realli so long i ever got so high le. 4 chivas? weeet. singing.dancing.birthdae cake. everyone got so high into the atmosphere. =)) i love all of them. but to think that im gonna transfer and see them lesser. haiis. xin hao tong hao tong. se bu de ta men. zhen me ban! laoda send me home after that. i seh seh like that. reach home abt 230am. bathe and lie on the bed. and! 0515hrs. my eyes are still opened. omg.i cant believe it man. imagine i woke up at 0800hrs for class. realli shake head. suprisingly.i manage to convince myself to drag to school. woke up in the morning. to realise i hav a bruise on my left knee. thanks to Mr Mok ytd night huh. lol. class todae.sama sama~ goei slp in lec.haha.hor thian? =X after sch.went outside for lunch with thian. den goei they all also there.dots. den waited for louis to finish his '10 course meal' at home to meet us. went back sch to study. lol.so suprised right? haha. i cant believe it also. at the scv sofa there. omg.heavens.lol.ireach there. first thing i do. SLEEP.cos im gettin a bad hangover frm the liquor ytd night. den study study lo.. taufiq louis thian they all all veri funny siak. rofl. watched the 'geisha' youtube video. omfg. that one realli can faint la.entertainment. 5+.went 200+ there. thian went play bball. me n taufiq n weikwan sit down there stone n talk. with our books n notes open. haha. 'lamb' dao le. nite ate mutton briyani. weikwan ate 'lame' chop. roflmao. thats all.nth to sae also. jux findin it pretty hard to concentrate on my tests. my FAOM.omfg. haiis. work n work somemore. nite. *bu de bu ai - pan wei bo* Thursday, June 01, 2006
*...haiis...* Jean saes. todae is a pretty long dae. haiis.mani things happened though. todae mornin didnt went for jap lec. in the end.ask jiawei help me sign. den cock up.he kena caught. tml jap tutorial dunno how siak. somemore tml presentation. wtf.i haven even started la. haiis.thanks to joseph.helped me find all the pics.thanks alot.=)) even offered to go sch help tml later.thanks brother. todae.dots.like tat lo. late for MR tutorial. couldnt get a bloody cab. people nowadaes realli like to cut quene.omg. i got so sick and tired and disgusted of those asses. weet!~ i got an 'A' for my SPSS. wow! i was like so happy man.thank god. my groupmates are wonderful. that stupid mister Kek.thanks man~scorpio~lol. after class went kopitiam with Winniefier and Kek. got pissed off with the guys for meetin and not meetin and meetin. argh.gets on my nerves. dunno why nowadaes guys are gettin so much jialut den gals. dots. in the end.went to meet xiaoxiong. nth much also.hor? shakehead.=X chattin with teddy on msn.lol. he intro his buddy to me. shakehead. and to realise. this world is sOooo small.zhenshide. we are all connected everywhere. his jap is so good lo.still ask me to be his sansei. sansei ong?rofl!=X hee. 4+ went to meet ruiqi at raffles. he was like so late la. was waiting for him to reach. realisin im fallin asleep man.omg. we went TCC! oh yea! my fav place man. gosh.its heaven!
omg.you saw the chocolate fudge?hee! its super duper nice! the chocolate.omisgosh. *yummy* lol.we talked abt alot of stuffs.hmm.yea. went back to tm awhile den go off le. finally.the new maid is hear.thank god. im feelin tired now.haiis. jap presentation.im dying. wanan. *zhe yi miao wo ku le - Luo zhi xiang* |
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