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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Jean, 29091988I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Exits
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Tuesday, September 12, 2006
happy her wannabe last three daes. did not realli have the mood to blog. *tsk* veri caught up with work. and ouh well. yes. i had fallen ill AGAIN. think my body is gettin so weak oh so weak. lol. but sales was not bad i can sae. haha many things happened at work. got to noe many more people. dudes like Edmund and Nick and Alex. yes. Edmund and Nick. lol. why mux it be these two names again. taha. sick realli veri xin ku wor. cough till like mad. vomit till like mad. thanks to the collegues at work for all their care n concern. and for takin care of me when im not feelin well. mondae went to stay over in alloy's chalet. ouh well. Jean promised not to drink de. taha. in the end. had one bottle of thirty three. Can You Feel the Kick?? hahah. of cos i can. somemore i sick. the kick was even stronger than it could be. taha. after eating all the HONEYed stuffs. my cough becomes worst. thanks huh. but it was a wonderful night. had a chat with everyone. pretty long one too. talkin abt our ghost experiences again. lol. and unknowingly i fell asleep. head was feeling super dizzy. woke up facing the cupboard. it was kinda freaky. lol. went down to the beach after i woke up. den went to stone 4 and sit. When i Look up into the sky goodness~ IT WAS A SUPER STARRY NITE!! there were realli thousand and one stars in the sky. it was realli a veri beautiful sight. realli wish i could capture that moment down. it has been such a long time ever since i last left Woodlands and saw so much stars. they are realli realli countless and scattered everywher around the sky. goodness. Jean was realli mesmorized by the beautiful scenery. just den. alloy saw a shooting star!! lol. but my view was being blocked by the retarded coconut tree. and by the time i realise. the thingy was gone. lol. ouhwell. just my luck then. but the starry sky realli made me so happy and smiling throughout the nite. SO beautiful~~~ its realli more than words that could expressed. =)) i didnt stayed there for too long. when off around tuesdae mornin ten plus. 2 more weeks to Jean's birthdae. how time realli flies. this is wad my fren told me. 'The best way to know Love is to Lose it' *tsk* 3 more weeks to Korea. suddenly i dun feel like going anymore. its realli losing its meaning. im not lookin forward to it anymore. i wanna work. work till i die. and hack care about the outside world outside. what should i wish for this year? That Humans shld live uniformly so as to reduce conflicts and arguements to restore world peace? hen hao. even animals dun live uniformly. how can that be even possible for Human Beings? =) wad ever~ at the end of the dae. this is getting more n more frequent nowadaes. ended up having a quarrel again with you. haiis. She dunno wad to sae. there is realli a communication break down. She dunno how to face you now. She dunno wad u wan. She dunno wad she wans. She dunno wad u can do now. She dunno wad She can do now. She can onli stay put helplessly. and stare in the blank. Basic Trust and Respect. She gave You all. Did You give it to her? Why should She even tell You everything and everything in her Freaking Life? Why does She even do so much silly things. telling so much People about You? Why did She do that? You dun speak up. You keep to Yourself. 'Hows ur dae?' 'Fine.' thats all she gets? blah blah blah. making her feelin like an idiot. all dae she goes talking non stop. for wad? hoping to noe how did your dae went. how are You feeling and such. speaking of appreciation. so much things to talk about. Sick and mc from work. went to Your Workplace to acc You for dinner. den waited for You for hours to finish work. You fell ill. couging like mad. She bought Strepsils for You. She was ill for some daes already. She dun even get a freakin bottle of Mineral water for You. jux plainly askin her 'feelin better?' or 'how are you?' =) 'WAD THE FARK WAS THAT?' this sentence was the most classic out of everything. Would a man who cares and love for a lady sae this to her? in CAPS LOCK SOMEMORE? Her paitence level is very high. she still is able to take all these. of cos. now You have your part to argue back. This is wad she is thinking. and many more others. at the end of the dae. sleep. wake up. its another brand new dae. =) time time time. thats wads She has been telling herself. Give You time. Give herself time. but how Long is Time gonna wait? how long does it take for another outbreak? How long more can she Wait? She knows that it is not Your intention. all you know is to say that. Den she can also sae. all that she had hurt You. they are not her intentions too. which they are realli not her intentions at all too. =) Actions speaks louder than words. Dont You understand the Fact? You keep sayin that those are not Your intentions. She also noe how to speak onli. YOU ARE NOT SHOWIN HER ANYTHING. other than wad You said that You Love her? =) She's still waiting. She will wait till she runs out of Patience. simple. TELL HER that its madly in love. not just a habit. She is bleeding to death. is it you? or is it her? or is it the both of You? **THIS ENTRY IS NOT AGAINST ANYTHING OR ANYONE. =) it is just an entry that is about someone else that Jean knows =) TAHA. COS JEAN IS A HAPPY GIRL and she will never be sad again. Cheers~ =))** |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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