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Jean, 29091988I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Saturday, October 28, 2006
Jean's new haircut lol. todae after school outta of blue. tells bf. 'i think i should go for a haircut.' and then there we were in bus 15 making our way to Century Square SuperCuts. tsk** haircut is damn super short. hhaha. Jean dunno why sudden got the mood to leave my comfort zone of long hair. but ouh well. but wads done as been done. seeing all the long cut droppin onto the floor after each snip of the sissors. lol. oh ya! the guy who did my hair for me. his name is KENNY too. wahhahahaa. looks fierce but yet so soft~ awwwww~~~ lol. ouh well. some people sae i look great with the new haircut. some people sae that i look chubby with the new haircut. some people sae i look younger with the new haircut. so many comments. tsk tsk tsk. sch sch sch. getting sick man. formed project grps. some little problems were met.hmmm. im still adjusting myself back to class man. projects this sem is realli heavy weightage. basically all my modules its coursework base. -.- back to sales floor on sat. back to the real Jean. lol. sales sales sales. yay~ thats still wad Jean likes to do. =) the Yeah Yeahs. thats wad we called our communication skills 2 project grp. taha. sounds so corny. many things had been happening recently. and Jean has been damn busy. thousands and millions of apologies to people that i had ignored on msn.messages.and calls. at work.at home.bf.bf family.close frens.not so close frens. tsk.there is realli too much things to handle at one go. its amazingly how fast Humans can change. and to people who still believes in the word 'Forever' lol. its time to wake up people. Weather VS Humans its equal. you cant see the difference anymore. accept the fact that People do come and Go in Life. Cherish Life. cos Life is just so short and fragile. sometimes the more effort a party puts in. the more the party will get hurt. so many good examples around me to evident. when a person decides to change. he or she will just turn into another person whom is so cold blooded. so cold blooded that you will actualli slap yourself away and start questioning. 'is this the person that ive fallen for?' no point feeling agony or wad so ever. wad is done and it cannot be undone. veri simple. its just like PBL. you have the problem now. you just need the solution. and as Humans. we should have the courage to pick things up. which is insufficient. we should have twice the courage to let things go. though its hard. but when things comes to a dead end. there is no way back. like wad Jean has always said. once a mirror is broken. no matter how you fix or glue or staple the glass pieces back. the mirror will still have the cracks. once a person is dishearted. he or she wld never turn back again anymore. its hard for me to believe that there is a forever in Love too. tryin my best in the relationship. but IF. IF. it fails. it must be fate. thats all i can sae. cos shit bounds to happen everytime. so im rather dishearted. but. i just tell myself. i just wanna be happpy with wad i am. and wad i have now. :) back to work back to sales floor. thats who i am. Jean. Thursday, October 26, 2006
freakin tired ouh well. by popular demand. Jean is back on bloggin. haha. not realli also la. its just that last few daes. or rather. the past one week. work work work. and then im too lazy to update. =X believe it or not. in a blinking of an eye. there goes the 3 months supposingly freaking long holidae! and now. its back to school. taha. dreads** Jean dreads goin back to school. work now is fun though. although pressure of meeting targets are there. ouhwell. just have fun and learn along the trip. cos we Human living on this Earth. we should be smiling widely everydae. like how our wonderful collegue Anson from Braun who always like to laugh till his face n ears goes red!! lol. damn the rice cookers. no more serving of the rice cookers anymore. *tsk* oh ya. talkin about school. sians. back to many reports. research. datelines. -.- i wan my Life man. where did my Life went to? went to Mount Faber for dinner a few daes ago in a black Honda Civic. taha. the feeling so shiok man~ lalalala~ eat slack talk. thats Life. and as usual. Jean has been rejecting lots of calls and messages recently. reject alex's messages. yew on's calls and messages. nick's calls. yusland's calls. jimmy's messages. Jean is like freakin tired. body feeling veri exhausted. think ive worked my body out too much man. always waking up in the mornin with aches everywhere. Problems here and there. so many endless things waiting for Jean to do. many problems waiting for Jean to solve. I dun mind helping. but hope my help is appreciated no matter im being accepted or not. I just hope that nothing will go wrong after that. thats why i sae. workin life is better. tsk* serving customers is my hobby. lol. work can let me make many many good frens also. people in best denki century square. they are funny people. cos they never fail to brighten up Jean's tired or grumpy dae. just to realise that. one full dae at work VS half dae in sch. time seems to past faster at work den sch. WHY AR?? Jean has been assigned to an important task. realli important task. wish me luck and ill do my best. haiis. I NEED TO DESTRESS!!! joe joe joe. sentosa sentosa sentosa. when when when when when? next tues town k. JEAN NEEDS TO WORK!! Thursday, October 19, 2006
21st Oct. One Year. 211006 find the most beautiful place on this Earth and bring mummy there. tears. Jean missing her dearly. Monday, October 16, 2006
cold blooded jean i feel that im so cold blooded. wanted alex to stop contacting jean and forget everything. rejecting his calls and messages. rejecting eda's calls. rejecting nick's calls and messages. alex nv fails to msg me everynight. and jean never fails to not reply him. im doin all i could. im doin all i can. to stop all these shit. but yet. its becoming worst. nick msg and said that he has been getting drank everynight. ask me to drop him a call or msg. i wish i could. i wish i could do smthing to stop all these drinkings. but if i become soft hearted again. to drop him a msg or call him. things will start to go the same way again. and neither of us are goin to benefit from this. yet i dunno how to go about solving this. and has been giving me a real headache recently. i have to solve this myself. cos it involves me. i wont wan anyone to come in to try help me solve this. im just gettin veri helpless. am i being cruel doin this? am i cold blooded? i have no choice. i have to stop this. im sorry. Sunday, October 15, 2006
tsk*  Jean just came back frm work. feeling so tired and restless. tsktsk* in the future just get a rich husband and get married. and taha. never ending supply of money like wad ive always dreamt off. and rot everydae till i drop. haha. first dae at tamp Best denki. tsktsk* i dun like. haiis. the people there cannot make it la. competition wan to so aggressive. 4 Braun promoters VS 2 Philips promoters. wanna show Jean talent also hard. still needa wear the damn Happy Coat they called that. shitty stuff. saw fangwei todae. wanna laugh at me times ten. shakehead* shou bu liao. first time. how i wish school to start fast fast. so sick and tired. argh. the stupid Happy coat looks like the 'costume' that they wear in Korea. -.- wan to so disgusting to the max. sundae. if anyone happen to drop by tamp. please please. nudge Jean and tell her that you are meeting her for dinner. ar bo will bored and melt away.  ATTENTION TO: You see ar? even Raymond calls me jie jie le. so when gonna be ur turn to admit that im ur Wonderful Jie jie????!! =X
tsk tsk*sobssobs* is it realli that embrassing to have Jean as a sister? Oh kenny~ You break Jean's fragile black heart~~~ Saturday, October 14, 2006
the Love. its back. The Love is back. can it stay this way forever as it is? and never end? Jean has always believed in miracles. prove to her that she had made the right choice of not making her choice will ya? =)) Half of the Fridae was spent rotting at home. den went out with sugar and the 2 hafizs. went to Vivo City. all the way to Habour Front. lol. they are camwhores too.damn. the place was superb. super nice to the max. the place is so Gigantic. I swear that you will shop till you drop. hahha. bought a Zara tube top. lalala. so happy. my shopping mood since Korea hasnt ended. die~ pay still haven come in. holy shit. saw this top from Pull and Bear. damn nice la!!! argh!!! must tahan till pay comes in. and yet Jean is so lazy to go work again. no work = no money = eat grass. *tsk* had fun todae at Vivo. and we barely even walked 1/4 of the place. goodness~ Jean wanna go back there again and shopping craze. haiis. Jean wants Sentosa.. JOE!! when are you gonna organize again~ tsk* school starting in one week's time. end of freedom. back to projects and more projects. i dun wan~~~~~ argh. rejected eda's calls. rejected on's calls. rejected alex's messages. how persistant guys can be in her life. she just wants to be happy. she just wants to love her daes. by doing all these. You are not making her happy. You are making her feel even worst. she is just a normal girl. she dont deserves such attention from you guys. Damn the Backstreets Boys. Friday, October 13, 2006
Shifting House again~ ouh well. Check out Jean's new blogskin. so vogue. lol. some people sae its U-G-L-Y. some people sae its wonderful. but ouh well. Babe likes it. so this would be my blogskin! lol. went to view house with mummy again todae. bedok north. hahha. nice place. but shifting again. gonna leave my comfort zone and shift into a new place again. tsk* evening went to meet You. had food for Jean. the food was nice and delicious. or perhaps Jean was just too hungry. =X no la. the food was realli nice. ouhwell. a man who can cook is veri SexY. lol. went to pasir ris park. seeing some underage girls trying to buy 2 cans of Beer. it feels so bad to be underage~ lol. claims nv bring IC. but in fact.they are just plainly underage. just like kenny and my dearest gan di~ hahhahahha. feels terrible to be underage to go MOS? =X ouh well. heehee. Jean realli wans to go Sentosa. but she is starting work again this Saturadae. @ Century Square (Tampines) Best Denki. so those who are free and happen to drop by. please come and visit Jean. lol. Dying to feel the Love and Sparks again. Will You? Thursday, October 12, 2006
Rejecting Jean has. rejected free MOS trip. rejected all Alex's calls and messages. rejected Nick's calls and messages. rejected On's calls. rejected to reply on MSN. cos the babe needs a break. ouh well. she misses him. realli. and is the babe's complexion realli that good? lol. alot of people keeps prasing. ouh well. thats like some self glorification. bought a plain red bikini todae from sheer romance. lol. babe cant wait for another sentosa trip! tahaha. Jean LuB the blazing sun. Jean LuB the sea breeze. Jean LuB the sunshine. Jean LuB the hunks (=X) Jean LuB the cooling but salty sea water. Jean LuB the coconut trees. Jean LuB the tanning. lol. Jean practically loves everything by the sea. Jean needs the time and space and the freedom. Tuesday, October 10, 2006
taking a break Jean needs a break. Jean feeling veri tired and exhausted from the things that are goin around. so much things. spinning and spinning in my brains. waiting for the dae for me to realli breakdown once more. how i wish time and life pace will realli slow down their steps. so that Jean can stop and take a breathe. suffocating veri badly. so much complications. so much problems. the stress coming down to Jean. is like pushing her to the edge and always down the cliff. haiis. breathing hard. trying to chill. Monday, October 09, 2006
back frm Korea! hhahaha. aloha people! Jean is BACK FROM KOREA!~ haha. did anyone happened to miss Jean? lols. ouh well. it was a wonderful and pleasant trip. lots of fun.laughter.bonding in the trip. visited many beautiful places. the weather there is the best in Korea!! imagine the afternoon Sun in Singapore. Combined with the breeze at Sentosa. With the temperature of ten times colder than Genting. Thats Korea. lol. its amazingly how the weather can get so cold yet so hot there. taha. learnt many things frm the trip. learnt abt the Korean culture. tried the food. damn~ not forgetting their liqour~ LOL. for 3 nights. 3 nights in the roll we are all drinkin like mad. taha. first night was Joseph's birthdae. second night was jux casual drinkin. third night was Omar's birthdae. lol. i was caught on video though. *tsk* many things happened on the trip. but ouh well. now back to Singapore. end of my Korean Dreams. throw myself back to Singapore reality. taha. AND. Jean constipated for the 4 daes in Korea. taha. cannot poop times ten. feelin is so weird man lol. well well. im missing Korea. Missing the wonderful weather.. missing the laughter on the bus. missing the theme park which is like Disney Land. missing the farts that the Koreans had in the public! LOL! its their culture k people. DUN LAUGH! ahhaha... ouh well.. pictures coming up soon. so stay tuned people~ =X Tuesday, October 03, 2006
KOREA! tues night. Jean is gonna take her night flight off to Korea. Will onli be back on Saturadae night. so while Jean is away. I hope everyone would take care of themselves. remember to drink more water. blah blah blah. ouh well. had been looking forward to this trip. but feelin a little scared cos its been a long time eversince i had been on a plane. lol. sundae went to sentosa with Joe and gang. i shall update more when i am back Bon Voyage~ |
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