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Jean, 29091988I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Sunday, December 31, 2006
You Are a Peacemaker Soul You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can. War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace. You are a good mediator and a true negotiator. Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy. While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental. You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take. On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit. You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul You Should Rule Saturn Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye. You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature. And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance. You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life. You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past. You Are 60% Psychic You are pretty psychic. While you aren't Miss Cleo, you've got a little ESP going on. And although you're sometimes off on your predictions... You're more often right than wrong So go with your instincts - you know more than you think Your Five Variable Love Profile Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism:Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered. How You Live Your Life You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down Your Inner Child Is Angry You're not an angry person. But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming. You Are a Mermaid You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are. While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need. Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational. You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else. Your True Love Is a Libra Why you'll love a Libra: Social and charming, a Libra is sure to turn your head in a group setting. Libra has the style and grace to intrigue you... and the passionate soul to reel you in. Why a Libra will love you: You're laid back and patient. Libra doesn't feel rushed to make a decision with you. An appreciator of beauty, you can show Libra all sorts of inspiration - from art to nature. You Are 67% Addicted to Love Might as well face it, you're very addicted to love. But you're not really getting the deep love you seek. Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style. Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want. You May Be a Bit Borderline... Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame! When you're up, you're a little bit crazy... And when you're down, your whole world is crashing Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute! Your Birthdate: September 29 You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet. Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings. You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments. You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action. Your strength: Your vivid imagination Your weakness: Fear of failure Your power color: Coral Your power symbol: Oval Your power month: November Your Personality Profile You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval. What Your Soul Really Looks Like You are very passionate and quite temperamental. While you can be moody, you always crave comfort. You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust You Are More Mild Than Wild You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are. Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive. Your Birthdate: September 29 You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move. It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone. Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month. Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person. ok... now.. from all these nonsense quizzes. you can actualli guess how empty Jean's brains are right now at the moment. though with one million things to do. yet so unwillingly to do. argh. Saturday, December 30, 2006
tell me more and yes. jean is here to blog again. nth much. yet just another realli screwed up dae. just to realise that jean had realli been down of luck for the past few daes. fer reminded jean that she hadnt had 'tang yuan' maybe thats why. after thurs down of luck dae. fridae didnt realli went smoothly too. went to sch for project. was late for 1 hour plus. -.- first time record. ouh well. hours of senseless typing till 4 plus. where jean and fer headed down to town. boarded express bus 518. (supposingly to be express) den the freakin bus broke down after 2 busstops away from tp. a g r o. den nehmind.waited till our hair went grey. fer and jean alighted the bus following 'the crowd' hoping to catch some fresh air and some cab. so.......... when jean alighted the freakin bus. 'Piaaak....' her wonderful haivannas dipped into some wet soil. there goes the beautiful white slippers costing $20 yea man. forgotten to take that classic picture down. was thankin god that Mango new black pants worth $70 did not kena. waited for the other bus at the back. 20 mins. (: shiok. wanna fag. also dun have any. -.- next bus was den squeezing with all the people. happily the first stop after that. groups of 'ah nehs' ................................................................... .................................................................... ....................................................... jean realli wanna scream her head off at the moment. dun believe? ask fer. went shopping at Forever 21. jean swore that she did tried to resist and try to get hold of her internal locus of control. but in the end she bought two tops. (: Zara and Guess were in a huge mess therefore didnt realli had a chance to magnet. yup. that was quite a relief to jean's wallet. walked over to orchard emerald. met fatty for the first time of the whole RM project. juicy little gal. wahahahahaha. some hot stuffs yea. nth went wrong for the moment. den some idiot wan to msg jean and tried to irritate jean with the 'LIAO' ....... generation gap is the reply back. *gets on jean's nerves* an an came and fetch jean home cos he goin down to Costa Sands at Pasir Ris. walked home. DEN THINGS STARTED AGAIN. 'Piakkkkkkkkkkkkkk' once more. this time. god didnt realli had mercy for jean. and there goes the 70$ new mango black pants. do you call this S c R e W e D? complaint to mummy abt these 2 daes. and she promised to buy back a dozen of 'tang yuan' tml just for jean. (: yea.starting to feel the pressure and stress of reports.individual journals. argh.*bangs head* approaching the end of 2006. wadsup in for jean in 2007? more downfalls? im w a i t i n g. You are The Empress You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her. What Tarot Card are You? Friday, December 29, 2006
tell me abt it man yea man. tell me abt it. thurs was a dae that jean hope to make it well but failed dae. like A R G HHH... went to school as stated in the previous entry. projects. but my brain was totally empty. hanwei called.den went outside talk. shakehead. jean dun wanna care or play a part in those stuffs anymore. maybe its realli time to learn how to hack care abt everythin le. jean just hope that things wld be fine. went off at 1500hrs. went home.relatives were at home. so yea. flew out of the hse after changing. went to settle some shits and stuffs proceed down to bugis to watch 'Night at the Museum' that was when things started to get S C R E W E D again~ 1710 time slot was out. left 1920 so me and an decided to catch that. so we stoned outside mac and bullshit to each other. den watched the kid frm the table beside start puking like waterfall. wasted like two and a half hrs. -.- went for the theature. and jean realli swear to everyone that she would never stepped into Shaw again. fnjauhguahwvginieufhnbjaJghba8iw40igjnaeg floor was freakin dirty. chair freakin tall and uncomfortable. audience noisy like shit. screen small like fark. sound system as quiet as a mouse. waaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i tell u lo.. jean and an almost S C R E A M E D their heads off. tsk. den ah boon wanted jean go down Farmart. (which is freakingly at CCKang) so took train down to THiong Baru and took cab. wasted time again waiting for cab in the drizzle........... -.-!?! reach there 2300 liao la! joe.charles.ah boon.ah leong.jean.an. sit down there. like that also kena suan like shit. TSK. den blah blah. reach home 0100hrs. song bo? jean is freakin exhausted now. BLOODY NEEDS A BREAK!!!! Thursday, December 28, 2006
tsk it has been a few daes back when i last realli updated my entries. tsk. last few daes since chritmas has been damn screwed up. which i dunno why but i still noe why.. (erm.. -.- nevermind) but yea.. hadnt been in a realli good mood for the past few daes. everything just simply S C R E W E D UP. too much things just happened within a couple of daes. ive yet to sit down and realli think about what has realli been goin on. now im in school waiting for my bestie project mates to arrive. but my brain is empty. feel like sleeping badly cos maybe due to the over talkin on phone since yesterdae night. -.- Jean reached home 10 yesterdae.. other than 5 mins of bathing and 10 mins of other stuffs. from 2215-0245 hrs. Jean is on the bloody phone. so mani calls so mani rubbish to settle. like wtf. some people realli nth better to do. wanna 'kua si mi lan jiao' on the sales floor. was on the phone with joe.leonard.yewon.bobby.anson.hanwei. dai ji liao liao... I R R I T A T I N G! Monday, December 25, 2006
its 0702hrs now on Christmas. believe it or not. jean did not catch a wink of slp at all. and a few more hrs jean has to go back to work. (: come on. ask jean abt her eve celebration. its farked up. totally screwed. it was spent with lots of tears and rain from heaven. Life is nothing but packs and packs of lies. jean reallli cant take it anymore. she is realli too tired to carry on with life. everytime she found the light. everytime the light would dim on her again and again. tears tears and many tears. humans are perfect liars. so perfect that they are realli called liars. wad else is installed in my life? im waiting. waiting for the dae for my heartbeat to fade off. and slp away peacefully. im on my verge. Thursday, December 21, 2006
You're a bit conservative, traditional, and tend to follow conventions. You have an understated, easy sexyness that men love. People instantly find comfort in you, and you're a "best friend" to many. You Are A Lily You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize. You Are a Normal Girl You are 60% Good and 40% Bad Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past. But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl. Men See You As Understated You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman. You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men. Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you. You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well You Have Your PhD in Men You understand men almost better than anyone. You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well. Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful. You Are a Friendly Flirt! You are quite the flirt, but you don't flirt with just anyone. And you hardly ever get caught, because your flirting seems so friendly. You've got a good thing going. Tons of friends, both guys and girls. And if you do decide to flirt, hardly anyone's the wiser. Pretty trick! You Are An Introvert! You're not necessarily anti-social, but you do tend to need a lot of alone time. You tend to think before you talk, which doesn't make you the loudest person in the room. While you aren't outgoing, you are a good listener - and you tend to be a loyal friend.And you enjoy your friends as much as any extrovert does, in smaller doses. You're more of a conversation over dinner type than a party animal... and so are all your friends. You Should Be With a Water Sign! Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign canNot that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others. You are White Chocolate You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in. Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you. You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated! You Are A Professional Girlfriend! You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy. You Are Artemis! Brave, and a natural born leader. You're willing to fight for what you believe in... And willing to make tough decisions. Don't forget - the people around you have ideas too! Your Perfume is Glow Fresh, sexy, and clean. You're real, intimate, and exciting. Your lush sensuality appeals to men... And you're as sexy as Jennifer Lopez. Power scents: Orange flower, grapefruit, and citrus. lol. funni quizzes for girls onli! cos its Girls only blogthings. nites. (: craps marching by. wanna be a happy girl. thats all. carry on with ma life. lets lay rules on the table. you lead your life. i lead mine. dun look back anymore. cos nth would be gained. yes. we never understood each other's pain and agony. fine with that. all that has ended. let it be. move on. call me heartless.call me cold blooded.call me inhumane. you will noe in the future tat it wld be better up for us to end here. right now. i believe. out there searchin for ur love, there wld still be. ill search for mine. keep it up somewhere and hide it in a place where no one noes. betters are out there. im sure there wld be someone somehow. wld walk down this road with you. my route ends here. right here. at this moment. like now. Wednesday, December 20, 2006
'??? : "its amazing how a person can take so much... are you even human ***?"=)' take it as its all Jean's fault ya. reasons and things that he dun see he dun understands. being pointed at and being the bitch of the world. hated by fans and frens of his. thats wad things are like now. for people who do not understand situations. dun bitch around. She hates it to the core. stories. do hear 2 sides of explanations. not one. but she understands. its him that you peeps are talking about. being the 'most unwanted person' now. thats how people are lookin at it. all the tears and the thoughts and the efforts behind the scenes. who saw it? yea man. shes the bitch now. slap her to death ok. hes the goodie. and shes the badie. he is human with feelings. fine. she is not. call that selfish ya. hen hao. fark off for now. Tuesday, December 19, 2006
sentosa was quite a waste of money and youth todae. due to the raining dogs and cats weather. but it was quite fun. lol. Underwater World.Fort Siloso and 4D Matrix. went to watch Eragon again. tsk.siblings had fun finishing the whole pack of popcorns themselves. while i unintentionally fell asleep during the show. XD. updating with pictures soon. im just very lazy and tired cos got trillion things to do. argh. nite. Monday, December 18, 2006
2nd post long previous post abt sat's activities. now a short and sweet on sundae. (: rotted at home all e way. changing blogskin half way. boring jean as joe out. so henhao. mr yewon wanted to cut hair at Centrepoint. 0.o went all the way ther again. fatty also came along. so jean joe fatty waited at S-11 for mr on to be done. mr charles was on the areoplane cos he wanted to save money. -.-! talked alot of things that happened on sat night. poor fatty has a huge bruise on his head and hand. its just not easy. mr on came back and just where did the group go? i hear the answer~~~~~~~ YES! ITS K BOX!! muhahahahaha. yes indeed. within 5 daes. 3 singing sessions. wahhaha yea man. stupid fatty make jean cry!!! make jean so paranoid lo. most embarrassing! argh. lol. ouhwell. den jean went home. mummy wanna cold war with jean. tsk. im feeling sad. mondae is sentosa with siblings. 'Wait, I hear the world wanting something.' 'JEAN!' (*with arms wide open in the air) bhahhahahahhahahhahahhahahahahhahah. *evil grins* lol. its just for laughs. hen hao. goodnite. Sunday, December 17, 2006
my saturdae long saturdae Jean had. made Jean realli realli veri tired and exhausted. Slept at 4am.tsk. Joe early in the morning woke Jean up. -.- den met him in town at 1100. this guy is always letting Jean waiting for him. no matter is he alone or with his clique. lol. nehmind. Jean would have her share when time is near. taha. walked around. to Jean's greatest disappointment. She did not buy anything. but ouhwell. just walk around ba. when to Robinsons to find Diana they all for awhile. then~ Diana ask Jean to help her server shaver customer immediately. like huh??? hello~ Jean is in flowery tube and Levis Jeans and Heels. wanna Jean serve customer lo. tsk. but ouhwell. in charge asked Jean to do. can dun meh? lol. den Joe stand there blur blur watched Jean served.lmao. and sales got close lo.taha. Jean and Joe faster run away after serving that customer. cos scare later got more to serve.lol. went to find nick in the carpark. wanna change gf again.lol. den went to Suntec City. Joe and Jean too bored. went to catch 'Eragon' lol. freakin nice movie. this movie is so called one of the best movies ive seen for the past one month. hen hao. people. please go catch the show. BUT.. the ending realli turn me off upside down. overall its still nice. went to find liping they all.haha. so long never see them le. crawled through the crowd and walked to city hall mrt. met up with Yew on. million years never see him le. haha. his hair not that hair le. got hair liao. LOL. take train down to Jurong met up with Vin. haha. in the dae time joe was jean's ptbf. den change shift. LOL. vin became my ptbf for the night. (er.. sound so wrong. LOL.. yea man) at night. out of Jean's curiousity. went along with the guys to view the ceremony. the another side of chinese culture. ouhwell.got stuck in some deserted place in punggol. den in the end got screwed by mum for comin home late. she also dun wan to here explanation. den ouh well. never mind. i noe i nv anyhow do can liao. (: 'white' was so friendly. i like his laughter. he told me that BGR things he can help me. cos its against Heaven's rules. den he keep using his fan to hit my head lo. haha. he asked to forget my past and move on and not look back. ask me not to be naive and softhearted. lol. den i ask him about the hse that mummy had bought. den he ask me why didnt i ask the 'black' just now. den damn funny. i told him that cos he more friendly and approachable. he laugh most loudly. he's not scary at all. the others very scary. ouhwell. its an interesting side of the chinese culture. (: and im glad that i did went down. seen things for myself. hmm.. seems like alot of such things are asking me to forget my past and move on. ask me not to be naive and softhearted. they always sae my weaknesses de. tao yan!!! i think its time to change my life. and move on. Saturday, December 16, 2006
its end of exams. and yes. there it goes. end of those muggings. realli had just flunked all my papers. yup. *nods* but ouh well. let it be. didnt realli had proper updates for the past few daes. so here i am. wed was paper. followed by kbox with joe and gang. yup. met a few new frens too. ouh well. Joe. practically. had i know like 1/2 of ur class people? tsk. thurs was last paper. can sense the freedom. i didnt work hard enough. was much disappointed with myself. yea. sorta of angry with myself too. who to blame? blame that i dun have the brains for studying. hen hao. fri. yea man. best dae of all. lol. happy. no one called me. so yea. i went out. went to watch 'Open Season' den wen to do my hair. which was not realli nicely done. but still nice. haha. Went Hard Rock Cafe for Dinner todae. Hen hao. thanks to the voucher. i realli ate my freaking intestines out. but i had Lychee Martini and Apple Martini!!! NICE. XD many banglas there. they wanna most unglam and bollywood there. tsk. Life to me now. is to Just have fun for all i can now. (: study.work.play. eat good food when i can. spoil myself when i can. i need to love myself more. (: Just like Lychee Martini. Life is sweet and bitter for me. cheers to that. thinkin of wad fungwee always tell me. have the little blessings in Life. (: didnt realli wanna spoil my mood. so yea. lets have some pictures! (:  thats Lychee Martini. (: cheers.  Lychee Martini for You?   Thats Jumbo Combo. (:  Topview of Jumbo Combo. NZ Pepper Steak. But i Prefer Jack's Place. :(  is my mouth bigger than Patrica Mok? LOL! unglam. cos food is nice. =P  Finally. ICe CreAM~ (: Thursday, December 14, 2006
3 down. 1 more to go. and Jean is sick. too tired to update anything. i'll update as soon as im done with Common Tests. yup. (: sick like a dead log. Tuesday, December 12, 2006
one down. three more to go. damn A&P. haiis. Flunks. CRM. goner. Friday, December 08, 2006
just 2 words. just 2 words to describe thurs. SuCks & StresS school.A&P 45 mins of class. went Jupiter. started to rain heavily like shit. hen hao. went zap notes. went lib to slp. went for HTM class. got glossary test. which still got blanks left there though its an open book test. think im the stupidest and laziest among everybody answers on hand yet still cannot finish cannot find. like wth. tsk.nehmind. after HTM was studying. for CRM. so much freakin things to study. i realli dun feel like study and just flunk everything. with all the over flowing of projects and the mani reports and IJs. realli feel like slping and dun wan to wake liao lo. weekends took off. sat still have to stay home whole dae. !!!!!!!!!!!! with crowd at home. how to freaking study and reports???????? agro agro agro. not realli agro also. its more of frustrated. and mani mani mani mani things. all neber neber neber ending de. SHOOT ME NOW PLS. like now now now now. argh. rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Thursday, December 07, 2006
wed was a so not productive dae.. had one whole free dae. ended up in Parkway. had not veri nice Pasta Mania. played with the food. fung was so agro.lol. she farked me many times. =( but lol. yes. went over to Macdonalds stone stone stone. spent like 3 million hours there. had lots of nonsense and laughter. damn. tsk tsk tsk tsk. took bus home and stone. in school now. but. consulation now. den all the info was in labby and now got nth to show. hen hao. ill update the photos when i reach home. Devil: MILKSHAKE????? Angel: study for test. -.- Wednesday, December 06, 2006
omfg time slips away so freakin fast. its time for revision again. tsk. todae no school. but still got my butt outta my bed and down to school. took notes and start takin down notes for a&p suddenly realise i had been missing quite a few lessons. but its ok. i still noe wads going on in school. hen hao. sat - 2 events. Zoukout and Milkshake @ MOS. tsk. alot of people kept asking me which one im going. but people. its test week.taha. recently had been receiving those disrupting calls from Cheena Men again. DAMN irritating. had been repeatedly telling them that they've got the wrong number. they bloody wont listen. think the previous user of my number is a Cheena Woman. and think she does some weird stuffs. cos the people that had called always saes weird stuffs and hang the phone upon hearing on guys' voices. 0.0 henhao. dun wish to go into further details anymore. A few daes ago. an interesting question was being popped into me. 'wads the thing that you wld like to do the most now, if you were to die tml?' lol. i wan to pick up my flute once more. something which made me found the meaning in Life. whereby problems fades away with the flow of the musical notes. a paradise where u will forget everything. and be who you realli are. drifting away frm people around. being in my own world. that was wad i was told. that ive forgotten who i am. and like ive said. time doesnt allow me to slow down. im walking fast. doin things fast. eating fast. everything fast. (but sadly, not studying fast. 0.0) im not drifted away by Men. thats all i can sae. as a 18 year old teenage. everyone has the time in their world. to enjoy life and do things that they like and at their own pace. Jean does not have that luxury. no. mother.siblings.work.school.friends.house. got so much freakin things to do. so much so much. being the pillar of the family is not easy at all. wad to do? no choice for me either. thats my life. no one wld truly understands. the responsibilites.the worries.the expectation.the tasks.the pressure. no one understands. but im still a happy gal. at least in the front. (: i am one. sometimes i wish that pace wld slow down. and i could live my life normally like a 18 year old gal. normally. and wads the defination of normal. lol. thats like the million dollar question. no $$ is the greatest factor at home. no $$. den find ways to get. i cant be sitting at home or at Starbucks. grumbling abt situations and thinkin of how to get money. i dun have the luxury. haiis. just could anybody just understands? dun wish to care for anything now. so i beg those troubles for once. let me pull over with my studies first. and ill submit myself to you after that. screw life. maybe ive done too much evil deeds in the past. or its retribution. that this Life. im being tied down with so much stuffs. the person whom melts my heart away. -alfred  Gained knowledge while in school. Snapple - Mango. and my Favourite! (:  The Chilli spoils the taste. wad a waste. 
I'm loving it with medium rare. *before eating picture* This is how my nice plate looks like after meal. lol~  Tuesday, December 05, 2006
mondae blues typical mondae. mondae blues has usual. went out of the hse earli. reach the busstop den to realise. nv bring wallet. -.- walked all the way back. to and fro. veri tempted to take a cab. but i resisted my temptation. =X cos i need to adjust back my comfortness in car. lol. bus is good~ YEA~ yea. things that had happened for todae. tsk. forget abt it. dun wish to mention it. too tired to waste energy for such matters. just that tests are approaching. i just wish to study real hard and increase my bloody GPA gonna be a long week ahead. w/o much classes. but lots of revision. realli have to stay focus and destress. maybe its time to take up mediation or smthing. to calm down the mind. lol. its been some time ive last met up with joe and gang huh. its like drifting away from them again. lol tsk. im missing them. guess they are busy with work and school also. all the best to you guys exams ya. (: shall meet up during the holiddaes allthebest. (: nth much also la. life still goes on. people come and go. just not my dae. lol. dun ask me why. thats just it. uh huh. New dish from TP's Jupiter Cafe. named the Creamy Chicken. Chef: Joseph. lol.  had this during CRM boring lecture. nice~ (:  its little alfred~er ok~ hum jing peng~ yes it is.  Its the 2 glasses of red wine that i had at the wedding lunch on sundae. lol  Sunday, December 03, 2006
a sundae without work tsk. though not working todae. but was super tired also. haiya. things can never be enough for me. but ouhwell. life~ morning woke up early. to get prepared for the wedding 'lunch' (cos its at 12pm) at Four Seasons Hotel. waited till 1 before food was served. wanna wear nice nice but raining. but the idiotic driver of mine. drove into the void deck to fetch me. like wth la. lol.make me so paiseh. but it was fun. tahahha. went over. the wedding lunch was boring. not happening enough. haha. Jean's future wedding sure lotsa fun! haha. wait on for 10 more years man. food isnt realli up to expectation. which i think i can cook better LOL. had a little of red wine. with the smell damn strong. haha. ended around 3 plus. went to fetch family for century square. went down to bugis to buy stuffs for my siblings. walked walked walked. bought some stuffs and my levis jeans too! =X so happy. haha. had swensens for dinner and a bomb was spent. TSK. but ouhwell. i love my family. no choice. alot of pics to upload. but the page wanna hang times den when im almost done. damn irritated now lo. idiotic. revision is this week next wk big exams. i hope i will study hard. tsk. and some idiot got into some dunno wad shits. and got himself 9 stitches on the head. in the end i dunno anything. just sae tat 'settle liao. no worries' -.- mood good todae. so that wont affect. (: aint life a bitch lol. yes. sat work. no need ask. nth much also. ronald came looking for me todae. had a little small talk. work~ forget it. politics~ screw them. lol. but collegues are forever nice to me. somethings that i see realli cant cross my eyes. realli cannot take it. feel like slappin people and wake them up. lol. getting a little restless nowadaes to go work due to all these nonsense. but ouh well. im a civilised person. just lets see how far things can go man so. yup. (: as usual. busy fark. nite out at omar's was fun. nonsense shit. circle of death. vodka. projects. lol. thanks to comm skills. lessen our fun. ya. keep tryin to blog. but all the msns and msgs that are coming me are making me damn busy. lazy to blog liao. nite.. |
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