Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Friday, August 31, 2007 woke up early. couldnt sleep.. cant stand being alone at home.. so went out to meet ken and guys. went over to raid ken's hse. den headed for Escape.. they were like sooo freakin excited.. but ended up.. its closed on weekdaes.. should have seen those faces.. laughs.. jeric went to book chalet on the 18th and we headed for lunch at the foodcourt. toured to calvin's house where the rest were playin mahjong.. so the rest of the 7 of us started campin in calvin's 'big' room.. oh! congrats to Troy for passin TP.. but another big tp to come.. evenin headed to changi for dinner and I can see that this bunch of people they are always having fun and being so happy. laughs. home for now. and i hate it. 'cause thoughs wld run wild again. i hate that. storms are never ending. always and always. emotions are realli killing. why am I always in such a state? why am I in tears everynight.. no one wld ever understands.. I just need to lean on.. Thursday, August 30, 2007 regrets. I see something coming. but I dun think im ready for what You want to say. and I dun think im ready to take whats coming my way. Wednesday, August 29, 2007 there goes another dae! counting down to the days left before attachment posting. counting down to the daes left to the 19th birthdae.. it has been another busy dae to go.. Had a appointment with the insurance agent, brew tea for the coughing brother.. housekeeping.. tutoring.. tskk... ended up with ken and jeric at Gelare at Siglap.. had some real big waffle ice-cream.. and Jean made a mistake and ate Jeric's instead.. Im sorry Jeric.. laughs.. qianhao joined and had his $7.20 share too.. left for Troy's hse but he wasnt at home. went bedok interchanged to pick Troy.. and Jean paid her god-fathers a visit too.. oh! saw Lawrance too.. tskk.. shifted spot to Katong Laksa.. and a old angry man who cant park parallel was soooo pissed with Troy.. laughs.. Im in no position to laugh 'cause i freakin cant even pass my Final theory.. laughs.. im too lazy.. headed to Parkway and visited other collegues at Best Denki.. and went over for pool opposite.. well.. as usual when it comes to pool.. Jean sat there all the way.. felt that Troy was really tired of winning... =D nth much! went back to Troy's place to take ken's bike home.. and now.. Jean's feelin sleeppy.... time seems to pass in a flash.. weeks down the road.. attachment comes.. 3 months to go.. and we'll be back in school for 5 modules? and tada! we are done with school.. thats when it would be completely lost.. LOST! ouhwell.. we'll decide when it comes.. *sighs... what is becoming of DSB and DSS? where has the bond and laughters goes to? why does everything feels like breakin apart ? Jean's gettin more easily agitated recently. whats happening? I need to chills. NEW SKIN! change of a lill taste.. suddenly feeling that im changing into a lill girl.. laughs.. this music is from the movie Secret OST. nice right? *enjoys.. (: okok.. I would hereby give credits to my Left Hand buddy. For helping me in deciding to choose on this blogskin and this piece of music. Laughs.. Tuesday, August 28, 2007 fulfillin dae! early morning woke up la. tskk.. went to si ma lu temple and pray. walked around Bugis Street&Bugis Junction. had a pretty hard time keepin my hands away from my wallet to stop buying stuffs! growls! got bored and ended up in National Library. noe what? It takes 15mins to take the escalator from the first level up to the 13th level of the NLB. laughs! nth much.. got myself two psychology books to kill time! its time to enjoy! and i cant stop the grooves from Hairspray! Standing in front of a shredder with a piece of paper in his hand, 'Listen', said the CEO, 'this is a very sensitive and important document, and my secretary has left. Can you make this thing work?' 'Certainly.' said the young executive. He turned the machine on, inserted the paper, and pressed the start button. 'Excellent, excellent!' said the CEO as his paper disappeared inside the shredder machine. 'I just need one copy.' Smiles. Monday, August 27, 2007 Jean's bored. and I hate to stay at home. Im moving to the grooves of Hair Spray! saturadae was a freakin long tiring dae for Jean.. yea man.. they noe.. TSK!!! *roars...* shakehead.. well.. down with cough flu and fever.. getting better i guess.. worked on sundae.. Fiq was nice enough to pop by for a few minutes.. also because he was too bored at home? huh Fiq? *laughs.. (: after work.. meet ken and guys for awhile.. tskk.. see them studyin so hard.. makes me feel so guilty.. 'cause i had nv realli studied that hard! lol! good lucks people! (: hairspray in a few hours time! POOPS. please have fun before attachment starts!! oh damn. i swear the VSOP taste damn shiok! Friday, August 24, 2007 enough of the memories.. enough of all the emotions.. the sad fact is there.. You and I.. we both know.. Dont we.. if Only.. thats all we can say for now.. Time.. How much time do we have.. how much time could we afford.. and all these Time would cost how much heartaches? Im poor.. I cant afford anymore heartaches to go.. Im all dread out.. too much things to say.. But im too tired too... im coughin real badly. probably due to the movie.. Im addicted to this song.. Enjoys.. You are a Career Girl! You may not be a CEO yet, but you're well on your way to success. You take your career seriously, and you wouldn't stop working for any guy! An independent woman, you pay for your own car, clothes, and housing. And men appreciate that - at least, the ones as driven as you are. What Kind of Girl Are You? Your Heart is Feeling Sour Love isn't something you've forgotten, it's something you actively despise. You've obviously be hurt, and you're not moving on from those bad feelings any time soon. Love has left a scar on your heart. And you're in no mood to revisit romance. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Jealousy and sickness Your current outlook on love: Is cynical and downright angry Your love life will improve if you: Remember the good times - love isn't as devastating as you think. Watch out for: Scaring people away with bitterness. Even your best friends can only take so much. What Is Your Heart Feeling? Your Five Variable Love Profile Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship. The Five Variable Love Test You Have Your PhD in Men You understand men almost better than anyone. You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well. Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful. How Well Do You Understand Men? Your Hidden Talent You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. What's Your Hidden Talent? You Are A Woman! Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood. You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out. You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat. This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife! Are You A Girl Or a Woman? You Are a Flawless Beauty! When it comes to beauty, you spare no expense - and it shows You're the kind of woman a man would launch a thousand ships for It's hard for anyone to beat you in the beauty department But remember, it's okay to show a flaw or too - you've got plenty to spare What Type of Beauty Are You? You Are The Empress You represent the ideal female figure: beauty and nurturing. You bring security and harmony to many. At times, you are also a very sensual person. You are characterized by love, pleasure, and desire. Your fortune: You need to take some time to think about the role of commitment in your life. It's possible you need to commit more to others, or deal with how others have treated you. It is very important for you to support your friends and family right now, difficult as it may be. You may need to look at your relationship with your mother, or your relationships as a mother. What Tarot Card Are You? Your Love Element Is Metal In love, you inspire and respect your partner. For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience. You attract others with wit and a bit of flash. Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you. Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life. You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past. You connect best with: Earth Avoid: Fire You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other What Element Is Your Love? People Envy Your Generosity You're a giving soul, and you'd do almost anything for those you love. And they'd do anything for you! People may envy how giving you are, but more than anything, they envy those you open your heart to. What Do People Envy About You? Men See You As Understated You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman. You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men. Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you. You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well How Do Men See You? He's Getting Over Her... You don't mind giving up a little of your life for your guy. But there's no way that you'd put him first all the time. You've struck a good balance of independence and compromise. Just make sure he gives up a little for you too! Does Your World Revolve Around Your Guy? You are a Lavender Rose You represent love at first sight and enchantment. Your vibe: intense and intriguing Falling in love with you is: deep and meaningful What Color Rose Are You? You Are Bad Girl Sexy Girl, you are nothing but trouble. And that's hot. You've got the classic bad girl sexiness mojo going on. And your badass attitude makes men fear you - and crave you. Don't give into people who say to tone it down. You're perfect as is. What Kind of Sexy Girl Are You? The Part of You That No One Sees You are powerful, passionate, and dominant. You have a vision of how things should be, and you do your best to make things happen. People rely on you for your strength. You are a rock to many. Underneath it all, you aren't so sure about your passions. So many ideas spark your interest, it is hard for you to get behind a select few. However, you see indecision as a sign of weakness. So you pursue your goals full force - no matter how foolish they turn out to be. What's the Part of You That No One Sees? You May Be a Bit Borderline... Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame! When you're up, you're a little bit crazy... And when you're down, your whole world is crashing Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute! What Personality Disorder Are You? Your Love Type: INFP The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship. For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive. However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ What's Your Love Type? You Should Drive a Ferrari Sleek and sexy, style has a lot of importance in your life. And you'll pay a lot to look good! What Sports Car Should You Drive? You Are 72% Passionate, 28% Compassionate You are very passionate, especially when it comes to love. In fact, it's sometimes difficult for you to tell between love and lust. You jump in head first, and figure things out later... usually when it's all over! Is Your Love Style Passionate or Compassionate? What Your Dreams Mean... Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems. These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day. Overall, you are very content in your life. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. Your dreams indicate that you have very conflicted feelings. You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind. What Do Your Dreams Mean? Your True Love Is a Pisces Why you'll love a Pisces: Selfless and intuitive, you are perfect for a Pisces that lives to love you. You're sensitive enough to appreciate and explore the deep emotions of a Pisces. Why a Pisces will love you: You're generous and totally giving in relationships, something Pisces demands. You are also dreamy enough to get lost in fantasy with Pisces, but realistic enough to stay grounded. What Sign Is Your True Love? Your Love Life Secrets Are Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high. Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed You are a Total Romantic For you, love is like a fairy tale. Or magic. Or a Meg Ryan movie. Problem is, you sort of want all three. You bring the spark in the relationship In turn, you expect your guy to keep the fire burning Not a bad deal, as long as you find the right Prince. Are You a Romantic or Realistic Girl? Men See You As: An Attainable Challenge You know how to make your man crave more of you But you also know when to show some interest back You're good at keeping your guy guessing And over time, you'll let him know how you really feel Do Men Find You a Challenge? You Are a Friendly Flirt! You are quite the flirt, but you don't flirt with just anyone. And you hardly ever get caught, because your flirting seems so friendly. You've got a good thing going. Tons of friends, both guys and girls. And if you do decide to flirt, hardly anyone's the wiser. Pretty trick! What Kind of Flirty Girl Are You? You Are An ESFJ The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding. You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner. At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all What's Your Personality Type? Your Stress Level is: 64% You are prone to stress, and you're probably even pretty stressed right now. Life's problems seem to pile up on you, and this often makes you feel depressed and burned out. Learn to take time to relax and enjoy life, even if things are stressful. It's the only wa you'll get through the bad times. How Stressed Are You? You Are Elektra "You don't know how I feel. I want revenge." What Superheroine Are You? You Are 52% Lady You're part lady, part modern woman. Etiquette is important to you, but you brush aside rules that are outdated or silly. Are You A Lady? You Can Make 81% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You Admit it, you can seduce practically anyone. And sometimes you try just for fun. You're a total heartbreaker that knows when to play it cool. You are the type of person people go completely lovesick over. Just use your powers for good, okay? Can You Make Anyone Fall in Love With You? You Are a Mermaid You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are. While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need. Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational. You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else. What Mythological Creature Are You? Wednesday, August 22, 2007 tskk.. I really cant find my black Mango wool cardigan.. $70 over bucks.. *roars...* Im so sad ah.. tskk.. also dunno when I would be that rich again to buy another new one.. a.r.g.h... Wonderful. Mum didnt woke me up today early in the morning at 0900hrs to go to the market like what she had did to me last saturadae.. Thanks to the perfect weather.. Jean had been hibernating at home for the previous one whole week.. had a call from sales rep just now. to hear that boss cant find me on sundae! laughs.. damn suay la.. that dae was the dae i kena fine too.. isnt it? tskkk! Im starting to love homey Life.. (: the laziness!!! laughs.. realli realli realli very lazy.. but Jean was asked to blog.. so that others can know her more.. huh? >.< *oops.. ouh well.. nothing much exactly.. had been taking a few daes off to take a break from everything and work.. Im addicted to the game.. tskk!! and im like spendin realli hours in front of my labby to plaay! lol... unhealthy! eat sleep play slack.. weet.. thats LiFe.. recently caught 3 movies... License to Wed with Kenneth and 881 with my Mr Left-Hand buddy! and also Bourne Ultimatum! =X lol... 881 was nice.. intially thought it was some pa-ria show~ lol.. but its nice and heartwarming.. *'8-8-1!!! yo ah yo~!!!* (in hokkien) lol.. ultimate chardness! laughs... soooOOOOoooo many movies Jean wanna watch... Im such a movie freak.. laughs... Secret. Flash Point. HairSpray. Ratatouille. Evan Almighty!!!! weeeeeettttt..... please tell me that Jean is not a movie freak.. >.< started playing bubbles at bubble tea shop todae! hahha.. childhood memories ah.. the these 2 china kids like came over and were sooooo amazed with the bubbles.. so Jean gave my own bottle away... =( tskk.. but the innocent and naive smiles and laughters made everything right again! (: oh! my dear classmate Jianhao was so excited that the bubbles are able to bounce on the table before poppin off! laughs!! and to all the peeps out there studyin.. laughs... Pleaase Pleaseeee study hard.. lol... Sunday, August 19, 2007 tskkk.. boring dae at work.. Century became so cold and deserted.. growls..* realli bored la.. den nehmind.. went toapayoh after that.. kena fine.. $200 for the freakin butt on the floor!! argh!! super crankiness. Saturday, August 18, 2007 was late for consulation on fridae. tskk.. was raining cats and dogs la.. was quite satisfied with my grades for service Marketing Presentation and Individual Journal.. I swear the report's gonna tear everything down.. goodness.. wads done is done.. ouh well.. after consultation, went over to design to meet Kenneth and guys. slacked around and went off to Plaza Sing to watch License to Wed. to credit the boy for studying so hard for exams... (: slacked around again at starbucks and my buddy came over.. got a pair of new white jeans! >.< proceeded to meet Zheguang and group for National Day Fireworks at the One Raffles Quay Building 18th storey.. so good ah! at least dun have to squeeze with all the crowd and humid weather.. FIREWORKS WERE NICE!! nicer than last year i think.. with all the weird out of shaped hearts and Jupiters~ laughs.. nice.. with the music.. it feels so calm and relaxing.. things had a changed. I wish for this happiness and laughter to stay. (: Thursday, August 16, 2007 I do not wish history to repeat itself again. but why? Wednesday, August 15, 2007 This is where I call Paradise. sometimes. I just dunno to laugh, cry, hate, love, smile, breakdown or whatever. seems like Im realli completely lost. save me please. Tuesday, August 14, 2007 He saes 'I dun need a JEAN. fuck you!' is that how a man should talk? *smirks.. ouh well.. yes.. screw you back! (: carry on with your life man.. go on.. bon voyage to Vietnam ya.. Just go with peace.. and I would not be reminded of you anymore.. One fine day you would realise.. with your attitude and temper in this Life.. you really cant go far.. we shall see one fine day! all the best! (: oh! to Kenneth! Thanks for the ride home todae! >.< Nevertheless!!! woo.. I found this mushroom biscuits at home.. this damn cool! and quite nice to eat too! lol! This is how the packaging looks like.. so if anyone happens to hop upon these.. do grab a pack! its cute! laughs... This was the HUMONGOUS Sharkie Freezie or smthing that i had at Fish&Co that day! goodness. look at how 'small' it is compared to Syaiful's beer? I almost wanted to dabao the drink after the lunch. tskk! ooh! its too late.. I realised that I was going to take a picture after Ive cutted the fish.. but nevertheless.. heres the picture of my fish&chips... its humongous too... -.- This is my favourite of all! Calamari!!! lol... the serving was so alot! that I realli did dabao home~ *laughs... Sometimes ah.. when you have a mummy like Jean's.. You would realli dunno what to do.. laughs...* She freaking wants me to stay and come home earlier 'cause its the Seventh month.. goodness.. and she forces me and Uncle to keep the laundry after 1800hrs everyday! lol! damn Superstitious la! Cannot stand! *growls... and.. i need a reason for me to smile.. im so sick of the life that im leading now.. Whats in store for the future? More Pain? Monday, August 13, 2007 Stop messing around with my Life. I do not wanna give a damn to people who hacked about how i Feel.. go ahead.. tell everyone how well you can fight.. how well you make love to your partner.. go ahead and continue being proud of yourself.. Since you are so capable.. so handsome.. so almighty.. den go ahead to look for a gf or a wife who listens all to you.. Im no your bitch.. msg me all of a sudden to get me over to look for you.. asked you why.. 'cause you are bored? farked.. What am I do you? You dun deserve any bit of my respect because you dont even freaking respect me AT ALL. and now i understand. going out with other guys = sleeping&farkin around with other guys. this is how i am to you right? To you.. Im just like a lady with no morals hopping around huh.. this is how valuable to you. (: In your eyes, Im such a bitch. So why the hell did you turn back twice and wants a get-together again? Listen up bitch! You are the one who came back twice.. asking for forgiveness.. So.. stop putting up your nose in the thin air and act as if you dont care.. please start doin things and saying with your brains.. Ill prove it to you that you are just so wrong and screwed up.. A person who doesnt appreciates what i did.. a person whom Jean in his eyes is just not valuable and nothing at all.. I do not want to live such life under your Control and ridiculous-ness. I dont deserve this. The things Ive said and words that ive used in this entry.. pardon me.. but Jean realli need to get these out of me.. before i realli go crazy.. Im not ashamed to say all these here.. 'cause Ive did nothing wrong to You. So? if You are reading this.. IF you even bother.. THIS ENTRY IS FOR YOU ! here I am tryin to get over the pain.. there he is adding salt and rubbin on it.. i realli hate it to the core.. and I realli hate you. hadnt you incurred enough pain on me? I'll tell you that Im so bored at work todae. its realli ultra super to the max.. growls..* I had 1.5k of personal sales.. but it was done within 1 hour.. so the rest of the day.. basically i was just walking around, listening to songs.. talkin.. etc etc.. ran away from work earlier.. took a cabby home.. and tada.. im at home.. lol.. simple dae man.. more daes to come~~~~ and my legs hurts.. tskkkk.... Lets welcome the Hungry Ghost Festivals.. Lets look at some things that we should take note.. (1) Late at night when you hear someone call your name, do not turn back. If you have to, turn your whole body around instead of just turning your head around. (2) When someone sounds your name, whatever shits that you hear.. Just walk on.. DO not turn back. (3) For the next one month, just be home as earlier as possible.. (4) As Im typing all these, i could feel a gentle breeze coming in front of me.. when my doors and all are all closed.. -.- Sunday, August 12, 2007 Metro had closed down.. thus Best Denki was so deserted on saturadae.. tell me wads more to come man.. nth much.. work was sooo boring.. tskk.. after work headed down to tua.. some issues.. tsk.. and the best thing is.. Jean fell off the stairs (which i dunno how).. bruised her left leg a lill.. and sprained her right leg a lill.. wth.. how clusmy can i go you tell me... *growls...* i need to forget the past.. i realli need to.. it still burns.. why... 谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我 以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口 过了太久没人记得 当初那些温柔 我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后 我们都忘了 这条路走了多久 心中是清楚的有一天 有一天都会停的 让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕 在天黑了以后 我们都不知道会不会有遗憾 谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我 以前的一句 是我们以后的伤口 过了太久没人记得 当初那些温柔 我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后 我们都累了 却没办法往回走 两颗心都迷惑怎么说 怎么说都没有救 亲爱的为什么 也许你也不懂 两个相爱的人 等对方先说找分开的理由 谁还记得 爱情开始变化的时候 我和你的眼中 看见了不同的天空 走的太远终于 走到分岔路的路口 是不是你和我 要有两个相反的梦 谁还记得是 谁先说永远的爱我 以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口 过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔 我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后 我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后 Saturday, August 11, 2007 im half roasted. tskk. the sun at Siloso on fridae was like oven. my younger brother sae my back is now as black as bangla. and I almost pulled his hair off his head 'cause of that. laughs* Caught a movie too. to realise that all the shows are coming up. I wanna watch HairSpray, 881, rat-to-toe-ee, License to Wed, Knocked up.. Im not gonna watch the gore or the horror movies.. R-e-f-u-s-e... lol.. yea.. call me a scarycat.. i am ok~ im a lill spoilt princess! lol! To Fiq.. hey baby.. I know that you are going through a hard time.. Please bear with it.. Every family has their ups and downs.. as ive always explain to you.. being the eldest is never easy.. You have to always calm yourself down and think rationally.. 'cause everything depends on you right now.. You have the responsibilty to protect the female and the younger ones in the family.. its a must.. anything and everything tat you do.. please be cautious ya.. Although I may not be around hanging out with you peeps.. but you know.. that ill always be around when you need help.. just give me a call.. message.. and ill be there.. you know this.. ill see you in school on tues ya.. meanwhile.. do take care my fren.. (: Thursday, August 09, 2007 Ive made many people worry for me.. Im sorry.. too much things to explain.. realli too much that has been recently.. yesterdae night ive realli went crazy.. but not the max yet. given my ability and paitence level.. Im coping well with all the madness around.. Thanks for all the concerns.. Im trying my very best to be happy.. Really... And to You. Yes You. You know I am referring to You. Im really glad.. that you are always the one closest to me.. forever there when ive needed to.. especially for the past few weeks.. where all the nonsenses and the shits happened.. Sometimes I realli dunno how to face you.. too much guilt.. Ive owe you too much.. all your efforts.. I really deeply appreciate.. I dun care what others have to sae about you.. or about me.. or rather about us.. Lets hold this connection dear to our hearts.. 'Cause of me.. You had gave up lots of things because of me.. and yet you told me.. not to worry.. everything that you do.. I hold the first position in you... and yet I cant do anything at all.. Im really happy.. Realli glad.. 'cause i know.. even if everything falls out on me.. You'll still be there.. Ive no regrets.. of meeting you.. acknowledge you.. Do know that you played an important role in my life.. My Left Hand.. as we have said to each other before.. we both have our own routes and paths to go in the future.. For now.. I really want to sae.. a big Thank You to you.. I really appreaciate and cherish.. the bond that we had my dear friend.. I do.. I just realised that my house's fridge is so pathetic.. that there is no more maggis.. no more eggs.. everything also no more.. its time to pay Sheng Song a visit again.. tskk.. Some silly boy asked me silly questions.. laughs.. he seems to be so happy.. lol.. a failure who never does anything right in her Life. Everything that she does is always never enough. Family, relationships.. it all appears the same.. at the end of the dae.. i realise that im standing alone again.. so cold.. this world.. so cold that im shivering.. people always say that they care.. but how many really do cares? im really wondering now.. at this time.. i guess most of the people at this hour is outside celebrating National Day? People.. do have fun on my behalf.. Life is realli about responsibilites.. im realli in no status in no position to comment anything.. everything that i do is bad.. everything that i say is wrong.. why is it always always and always my fault.. i realli wan to give up.. i almost got killed.. im realli realli tired.. tears and tears and tears.. keep fallin non stop... i cant stop them.. im exhausted.. im devasted.. im loss for words.. im desperate for a long sleep which i would never wake up anymore.. im tearing myself into pieces. i wanna breakdown. where were you guys when i needed you so? Monday, August 06, 2007 tsk.. I felt that the dae was wasted~ laughs.. woke around 1200hrs and started packing the house as usual.. den went down to town for awhile and headed to the west to meet the rest.. shakehead.. tell me wanna study.. in the end.. who realli studied? lol.. kim came along and started with all his funny stories.. tsk.. goes on.. and to realise that the dae is gone.. lol! please! Patrick! You are a lousy companion when it comes to studyin! lol.. ouh well.. see you gay peeps on wed.. (: 3 Papers to go. and tada! end of Sem 3.1! time flies~ When a relationship fails.. Both parties tend to blame on each other.. but sit down and think.. what has really gone wrong? is it you? or her? or him? But nevertheless, when things cannot work out a relationship together.. There is no point in pointing fingers at each other.. Each individual works in a different way.. Everyone is different.. Everyone has their different angles in interpreting Life&Love.. When facing a breakup.. Let things go its way.. 'cause whats done cannot be undone.. GirLs You would have to give in for Men's strong ego.. They are from Mars. They dont drop tears for you. Cut down on things that your man doesnt want you to do.. thats compromise.. but dont force yourself.. it takes time.. Most Men would see the change in You.. and Love you even more.. but some dont.. they want more.. Guys Guys: You have to face the facts that Women are from Venus; the emotional type.. Tender Loving Care.. is what they really need.. Sometimes You think that you had already given enough for your partner.. think back.. are the things that you had so called given, is what your girl really wants? Never start forcing your girl to be someone whom she is not to someone, something that you want. Selfish. One word to describe this. No regrets so far. but my heart still tickles. please. let it die off. Money cant buy happiness. Probably, money can get you a wife who listens to you 200%. weet! new blogskin.. simple one would do ah.. sundae was another shagged out dae i swear.. Sentosa Day.. but I dont seem any tanner.. *growls... lotsa fun though.. muhahhaa.. will upload the pictures pretty soon.. so peeps.. stay tuned.. especially those who are the main characters of all the photos.. laughs! (: Sunday, August 05, 2007 Fridae.. was the tiring dae.. didnt really had much and enough sleep.. had my Services Marketing presentation... i think we screwed it up too.. oh well.. laughs.. after presentation.. had to run here and there to settle my LOA for last tuesdae's class.. before i really get debarred from Sales Management class.. lol.. after settling the school stuffs.. met my cute dan dan Jiawei (to dsb.. its not xiaobai that im mentioning ok..lol..) so long hadnt seen him.. and very sweet of him to get me vitamins.. (: thank you my dear fren! rushed off from school after that to meet my sales rep to sign the agreement.. den when off to Bedok to help carry and fetch stuffs to chalet... uh huh.. den rushed off again.. and went to Suntec to get my tube dress of the event at night.. uhhuh.. den rush of back to century again.. went to help Eugene get roses for the gf.. hadnt been back at century for some time.. so.. i was hanging and mingling around Best for some new gossips.. hahha... was freaking shagged.. went to take a cab home... (the sad fact is.. this applies no matter if im tired or not.. lol~) and had a power nap for half and hour.. thats so pathetic.. tskkk.... ate.. changed.. makeup.. blahblahblah.. *handphone rings...* and within half and hour.. Jean from home.. rushed to century again.. and got a birthdae cake.. tsk..! the long nite had just began.. laughs... went down to chalet to 'show face'.. hahha.. everyone was enjoyin the last min cake that ive bought.. and im soooo happy that the cake wasnt as bad.. lol.. take photos here n there.. blaah.. and off we go.. dropped by bottoms for awhile.. and wait for poops to reach.. and we headed down for MOS! its Eugene and gf's birthdae.. laughs.. had lotsa fun.. birthdae girl was drank (as usual for ppl who are celebrating bdaes and Jean happens to be there.. >.<).. hell lots of fun.. probably it was like realli million years ago since i last club can! lol.. damn long ago i swear! the music and the dance floor still cant get out of my head.. laughs..! Peeps.. I had fun.. thank you.. (: *winks* didnt realli took alot of photos.. but here 2! pretty 9 stalks of pink roses.. but they are not mine~.. i stole them for a shot! laughs* thanks ah birthdae girl! lol... this was taken after the hours of dancing and lotsa whiskey.. i still look sober.. dont i? lol! back home and slept at 0600hrs.. tsk.. till 1145hrs.. and off Jean is to work! wooo.. so mani happenings as usual recently.. laughs.. now lets go through a lill with what had happened ya! (: thurs night.. was feeling damn cranky (which i dunno why..) that night.. so I had decided to go out for a breather! laughs.. had supper at newton circle! Food and more food!!! Dishes first on the menu! Favourite Rojak & Black Char Kuay! So yummy that we cleared our plates.. laughs.. this is what happens.. When oyster omelette is ordered for the sake of eating the oysters and whereby the stage is reached when we are 3/4 full. (Yummy Oysters! >.<) this is the maggi goreng was ordered when we were 110% full (i dunno why too..) and it taste horrible.. and in addition.. this is what happens when your friends doesnt eat vegetables.. at the end of the day.. you have to start picking out all the cabbages and all from the plate of maggi goreng.. its like digging money in the soil and making a mess of the table.. -.- So.. advice given to girls.. PLEAAASEEE.. if you wan lesser trouble on a dinner date.. please choose a partner whom eats veggies! lol! this is unglam.. but yes.. thanks.. i was caught digging and eating happily away with my coconut.. laughs* ooh! this is the mess created after the whole supper! lesson learned.. do not order too much just for the sake of irregular mood disorders. Smokers! Now.. lets take a glance.. of the amount of cigarettes you are smoking every week! thus and therefore.. MY dear friends!! its time to quit smoking!! lol! Wednesday, August 01, 2007 what comes around goes around. in Life.. always appreciate whatever you have.. sometimes when its gone.. it would never be back again.. as an individual.. 70% to 80% of you would be staying inside your comfort zone.. the other 20% to 30% of you, would never dare to step out.. this 20% -30% of you.. is the you that would seek new stuffs.. majority of us.. would love to stay in our own comfort zone.. i mean.. everyone is so used to their own comfort zone.. doing things that are so routine and sure that things would not go wrong if continue so... thus it becomes a habit.. but when someone takes up the courage.. to give up on its comfort zone.. and take the step out ahead.. knowing that things would go wrong for sure.. yet still going for it.. isnt the person stupid? laughs.. Life is like this.. full of risks.. once stepped out the comfort zone.. immediately.. theres a huge stone in front.. regardless... the person still run forward.. lol.. and what happens? *thump!!! hit against the big big stone.. fall.. bleed.. and died.. so what does this teaches us? sometimes in Life.. theres is no definite way or route to go about being a good man/ a good lady.. just like buying 4D.. you buy the number that you wanna.. and it doesnt strike.. but comes to the time whereby you forget to buy or gave up alreadi.. *thump..!* strike! 1st prize somemore! lol.. same theory... nothing much recently.. just that everyone in the family is fallin sick one by one... and im looking after them one by one till im gonna vomit blood soon.. lol.. adios! im still not prepared for examinations yet. tsk. i want to go for a holidae..
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay