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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Jean, 29091988I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Friday, September 28, 2007
HOHO! Scream people, scream! 'Cause Friday is here again! and yes. this weekend would be a blast. Double happiness. laughs. after work on thursdae, met up with ken, aloy and jeric. went to catch a movie. Balls of Fury. rather crappy show, but ouhwell, cant deny the fact that i had a good laugh. (: before the movie, we bumped into chekming. to realise, ken and guys knew him too. omg. singapore is really freakin small. laughs. after movie was tmart to meet up with shawn, shirley and eileen were there too. and. SHOOT, MARRY, SHAG game was on. wth. lol! but we had a good laughs. Gossips and more gossips ah ladies?! more to come girls! hahaha.. Dinner at Brewerkz tonight with the marketing poops. followed by celebration of Vin's birthdae at Mini's. omg. i do not want to imagine please. tsktsk. ohwell. more to come tonight! (: and. im feeling excited&happy. Im hating this idiot. all the nonsense he's doing. *points down* but ohwell, he never fails to entertain me in the boring office FARK OFF PATRICK! =D hahahhahahah   Thursday, September 27, 2007
 I did this with Photoshop. Though I have no idea what is this, but Im so happy 'cause I dont know how to use Photoshop at all. thus, this is a great achievment for me. =D IT SUCKS ON RAINY DAYS! Yesterday night I had dinner at home with my family. Though there were not alot of dishes. but yea! its was nice and very filling! caught a dvd with my mummy and i left for lala land. very tired. very sleepy. tsk. nothing much recently ah. and Im starting to be lazy to blog too. omg. hmmm.BUT HERES SOMETHING! One of my gifts! laughs.
 I dunno why it was this. Very random, but yea. *shrugs*
Doomed In of the picture.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
oh oh oh! Im back! and yes. its wednesday. It seems fast, 'cause I can feel the weekends coming again! laughs. and as for today, me and fung has a dateline to meet. thus, we would be rather busy I hope (: I feel so low esteem and no confidence. 'cause Im damn broke. tsk. super broke to the max. when was the last time Ive got myself into such a state man! laughs. ohwell. yea. endure! haha. reject the girls for lantern playing at Pasir Ris yesterday. Sorry Ladies. other dae ok! (: and guess what. when I got home, they were watching 'Norbit'. omg. then they changed their minds and refuse to go downstairs. Got to know that my lill brother had gotten himself alot of rashes from his throat all the way down to his legs. even his Balls kena red red. goodness. his body looked damn scary ah! and as a good sister, (laughhs~) i applied cream for him. see him like so poor thing. scratching all around like a monkey and it looks pretty bad. But the problem is, i dunno If its contagious. told him not to go school todae. But i woke up in the morning to see rashes spot on my face. YES! ITS ON MY FACE! argh. i dunno if it still can be seems now. BUT YEA! omfg. Tuesday, September 25, 2007
its tuesday. which means is 3 days left to weekends. and also 3 days left and I have to stop telling everyone proudly that Im 18 years old. omg. Im no longer 18. I had breakfast just now. just a moment ago ok. bread with kaya and butter. like long time never eat le. laughs. can be nice at times too though. haha. I did something really unglam while i was in the train to work today. 'cause the train was very crowded. with my phone earpiece on, my phone drop into the paper bag of the old uncle in front of me when we were like moving in and out for the other passengers to move. and lol! guess what I did. I just pulled the wire and fish my phone out from his paper bag. omg. imagine if the moment he turns and sees that process. I think he would scream his head off thinking that im trying to steal smthing or stuff, there goes everything. tsk. BUT ITS NOT MY FAULT! yesterdae after work. was freaking angry to the max. argh. long story. dont ask. 'cause till now Im still freaking angry and it spoilt my birthday dinner on monday! *rolleyes* Monday, September 24, 2007
GOOD MORNING LADIES&GENTLEMEN!
wooo.. NOW lets take a look.. Men VS Women      Friday, September 21, 2007
welll. its still fridae. feeling tired, thus went home after Mak's with fung oms neek edmund fiq. pretty bored now. so yup. lets add colours with some pictures! ((: THE OFFICE LIFE This is what will happen to your chocolate if you walked under the sun with it in your hand, and walk from Lau Pa Sat back to 9 Shenton Way.  This would make a perfect snack after lunch!  Jean's lill Messy workdesk. bored.One. Welcome to Jean's Corner well. this is my bed. Check out the bedsheet. laughs. Introducing: (From Left) Big Brother Bear, IKEA Heart, Jean's Tigger. They are the MUSTs to be on Jean's bed. (: Jean's Collection Take One.  Jean's Collection Take Two. Jean's Collection Overview. The Aunties Gathering. The Fat Mother and the Fat Mother's Mother. Fat Mother trying her best to break the Humongous Lollipop with the Hammer. There goes my BIG Lollipop. Sharing it among the irritating kids that were running up and down the house. ARGH. I wan my Biggest Lollipop. ): Next week. Busy Week.
OK! NOW NOW NOW NOW! TELL ME ITS FRIDAE!!!! lol! omg. finally man! weekends are FINALLY here after the long draggy week. i tell you AH.. MY tummy was rolling and mixing around so badly when I was on the way to work. omfg. Imagine how much pain I was in. goodness. ohwell. dinner was with Fiq at Mak's Place. and i dunno why. Ive paid ten dollars for food, but I didnt even had 5 bucks gone down my tummy. I dunno. Food wasnt realli appealing yesterdae. So i didnt had much. ((: had a long talk with Fiq and haha. Miracles do happen eh. had a walk all the way from Mak's back home. haha. LONG WALK can. I need to exercise. Growing fatter I am. tskk. reached home. had a talk with mummy. which got me pretty restless and moodless before i went to bed to end the dae. 'should i continue studying if Im able to get bank Loan?' That was my question posted to her. At first she replied scarastically and asked if I even have the heart to continue studying. I kept quiet and didnt wanna say much. after some time later, and I assume that she gave a thought to my question, she said to me, ' I think its not really feasible for you to study even if you are able to get a bank loan. I still owe your grandma 10k and every month Im using 1k of her money to support you all! You can always study in the future after the family is stable down. Like the (who-so&so.. my cousins' names) also like that wad.. blah blah blah blah...' and she goes on. i dint even bother to continue listening to what she says after that. HELLO. You dont need to pay for my anything at all except for school fees through CPF. You dont even give me a single cent since like dunno when. and now Im sayin I wanna study if I could. and you are telling me not to because You are in a pile of freaking huge debt. and you want me to help cover the hole. ((: thankyou. when it comes to family. *letting out a big sigh. speechless. Thursday, September 20, 2007
HELLO PEOPLE! ITS THURS! Can you smell that fridays are approaching! weeeeett! For those who has attachment on sats.. Jean has to say.. IM FEELING SORRY FOR YOU!!! =D *am i mean or am i mean? laughs..* well.. slept for 5hours and i swear i looked like a zombie when i send my lill brother to the bus-stop. omg. and yes again. as promised to the birthdae boys. I went down to the chalet yesterdae night and everyone was bbq-ing. and gladly, due to my tonsils aching, I couldnt glut on heaty food. tsktsk. so what i ate throughout the few hours were special unskined chicken wings (laughs), crabsticks, marshmellows, beehoon, hotdogs and er.. yea.. thats about it. ((: and at the bbq, theres 'chefs', a 'radio' and 'waiters'. danny was trying his very best to get his chords right on the guitar to impress us. laughs. the rest cooking, some watching dvds, and the rest of the girls, we started bitching. lol. as usual. girls favouritte past time in general. ((: and then................................... Food war started. omfg. you realli see everyone and everyone running for their lives and the other chasing with uncooked food like porkchop. Flying marshmellows, eggs, flour, hotdogs, ice. Basically everything that can be thrown, they were all flying around. firstly I would like to give my deepest appreciation to 2 person. first on the List would be TROY aka HAN BAO (for those who do not understand chinese, Han Bao Bao would be the pronounciation for Hamburger) for getting the piece of pork chop ON MY HAIR and my hair smells of RAW FOOD after that. secondly, I would like to thank SHIRLEY, for the second piece of uncook pork chop thrown on my caradigan. but thanks to Sarah, Ive managed to get Planta on Shirley's arm. SHIRLEY!! I KNOW YOU WOULD SEE THIS! hahaahah... I know you love me~ lol! dont You! burhur! =D All of you girls yesterday are asking/discussing/talking about the same topic when it comes to me. *ahems!* dont ok? Dont. lol. Let it be the way it is please. laughs. well. I had fun yesterdae and APOLOGISES TO QIANHAO. Sorry that i didnt stay around for the cutting cake ceremony ah.. Dont sad ok. and if you see this. PLEASE!!! I DID NOT MAKE PHONE CALLS OK! omfg. really cant stand you. tsktsk. anyways. haha.. yeess.. Happy Birthdae to you again. To Patrick again. SHIT YOU! BDAE NO NEED TO REPLY MESSAGE AH! dao leh you. lol! swee. next year your birthdae wont message you le. waste my 5cents. lol. as for now, I do have work to do. but im lazy. and Im feeling cold. Blazer to cover my feet. but Ive forgotten to bring sweater. omg. I really cant wait for ORD day to come. Wednesday, September 19, 2007
hello PEOPLE! Its WEDNESDAE MORNING! say hi to the rising sun. omg. tsk. since yesterdae night. my tonsil hadnt been good girls.. and they are aching like non stop through the night. making it difficult to even swallow saliva. and it lasted till like now, at this moment too. tsk. therefore! Im very determined. NO NICOTINE TODAE! say no to tobacco todae. at least it wont make my throat feel worst. THUS! Im gonna head for Seven Eleven later on, to stock my supply of sweets and chocolates. ((: Im so motivated and determined. and cut on those talking. im too lazy to even speak now. 'cause it does hurts ok. )): ouhwell. tuesdae after work. as promised. I went down to ken and guys' chalet. but they didnt do much too. just lazing around and watching Bourne. So, I went home after awhile too. oh ya. was tellin aloy and zon. i think i saw kaixiang. omg. i was like stunned la. singapore realli that small ah. people living in bukit panjang also can be spotted at Pasir Ris. i think its him. and the very next moment i realise that i was lookin high and low for the sight of tianfu. thanks to ken ah! forget to take car keys. tsskkk tskk. or else i dun think i wld start being so paranoid again. i walked so fast out ah after that. fearing that i would bump into him. omg. i also wont know what to sae. and just hope tat ive recongized the wrong person due to my blindness. Sudddenly like all the weird weird people contact me again. lol. weizong called. 'cause his 13yr old gf dumped him. (-.-) tsk. forget it ah bro. received chenwei's message and we had a short conversation and brought us back to the secondary school daes. lol. that guy has still been so silly and loves to inflict pain on his own body. omg. please dont do that anymore. *sighs. stupid. laughs. had a dream this morning! damn funny. Dreamt of Land, an old friend that I hadnt seen for ages. the dream was ridiculous. He used to be from Civil Defense. so i dreamt that, he got all the civil defense vehicles right down under my block as a birthdae suprise. omg. tell me how ridiculous dreams can get? -.- Just for Laughs. These were what Fungwee and I were doing, tryin to drag time before the end of work. ((: Fungwee ask me to drink more water.  I dunno why she had this. but ya. Indonesia's Flag.  Obviously for this. An Apple.  I said it was a leaf and a bear. fung insisted that it was a panda.
Idunno what is this for too. but yea. lol. with much love.  fung had this when I said its a No Nicotine dae todae. Weeeeee. this is the favourite of mine. this is drawn during my conversation with alvin. lol~ Tuesday, September 18, 2007
hahaha.. NEW SKIN AND COUNTDOWNS!! TIME IS CRAWLIN SO SLOWLY!  Fungwee and I had a agreement. when we are filthy rich in the future. this is what we would do to our cash that we have. Money Trees. ((: Everyone seems to be so busy and filled up with work during attachment.. while me and fung are like sitting our time away. 0900hrs waiting for 1300hrs. 14oohrs waiting for 1800hrs. everydae is like the same. trying so hard to be filled with work. but yea. always failed. fung asked me to continue studying. lol. but my GPA cannot make it. dropped even further. regretted not studyin hard in Year 1. which is like so too late now. it never seems to increase at all no matter how hard it is. tskk. went through SIM's website. but its like so tempting. but im thinking if i really do have the determination and will to finish through the 130cu of 3 years. does it makes any differences? everyone like seems to know where they are going after this. whereas im still drifiting myself in the sea. not knowin which direction to go. studies. laughs. how far can they bring you? I really have no idea. *dilemma* well. dinner with kasper and alvin yesterdae at suntec. and I bought a dozen of Donut Factory. stand and waited so long. but when i got home. 20 mins. whole box gone. laughs. oh well.. at least they are feeling happy. I feel happy too. ((: dreamt of daddy one that dae. omg. laughs. wed is the start of ken and guys' chalet. thurs is Jason's wedding, Kasper's birthdae, Qianhao's birthdae, Pricilla's birthdae, Patrick's birthdae. Stil got alot more. lol.. i also dunno who to celebrate and which to go first. lol. but in case i cant attend any 'cause im too tired. here goes. To Jason, Lao da. I wishing you all the best with ur marriage. and I hope that fairy tales exist for you and yupp. Happy ever after. ((: To Kasper, kns. you realli deserved to be scolded. lol! k ah. Let you off for now 'cause im still guilty about the prank ive played on you on Mondae! haha. birthdae suprise number 1! swweee! haha. Happy Birthdae in advance! and please dont go sengkang and anyhow again. lol. ((: To Pricilla, Hey You girl! haha. dont even know if you would freaking see this. but well. Happy sweet birthdae to you. and yupps! stay pretty and cheerful always. and as we all know. Troy is an idiot! haha.. Cheers! ((: To Patrick, YO BUDDY! haha. gan dong or not! left this space for you. haha. how many years friendship le ah! lol. stop flirting around la please. just go grab a girl and get married and stop your tao hua yun. and yupps. we always have fun when you are all together. just cant stand you at times 'cause you are always FREAKIN LATE!!! lol.. see ya on sat!! *hugshugs! To Qianhao, shit you! dunno what to sae to you also. got wish you is your honour le..lol. happy birddae!! =D To Jeric , HAppy birthdae to you too!!! 18th right..haha.. lets go Gelare again and have the flavours that we originally wanted! =D tada. time flies. and im gonna be 19. omg. no more 18. no birthdae mood this year ah. realli grown out of the birthday mood. no drinkings this year. 'cause yes. quitted! Lets not celebrate this year's birthday. its gonna be another normal sat! probably wont go down Jurong. =D Li shis! gambatte ah! haha. I want this attachment to go fast. and i realise my bladder got problem too. tsk. get over and done with for 3 months. and yes. i shall be a happy girl no matter what happens. though things would always go hay wired and out of control. which i never knew why. lol. so. oh well. ((: growing up. no longer a spoilt brat. independent. Sunday, September 16, 2007
qianhao laughed at me for now knowing how to spell Coven. I REALLY DUNNO HOW TO SPELL! tsk. Relatives housewarmin on Saturdae, and all the aunties aunties came and i swear it was realli an aunties dae. tsk.. long and tiring dae for me.. cant realli rest much.. sundae afternoon send granny back home.. headed to century square to find the poops. headed to Pasir ris to look for ken. and met up troy and qianhao. had katong laksa too. nth much. a few hours and its back to Lingua Tech. screw Lingua tech please. argh. fungwee. Lets work hard together and embrace our work with Love.. Im tired being everyone's pillar.. I just need you to be my pillar for me to lean on when i need.. but you never seems to understand..... Friday, September 14, 2007
someone please tell me what the fark is wrong with everything?! Wednesday, September 12, 2007
attachment is like hell i swear. from 0900hrs to like 1300hrs. nth is done. I swear ive been stoning in front of my labtop for like 4hrs non stop. and is realli do nothing. waste of time. Im feelin so hungry and cold now. and i need to pee. im goona bring my pillow and sweater tml. farkin cold. LUNCH IN 20 MINS TIME! Tuesday, September 11, 2007
attachment starts in like less than 12 hours time. ask me about how i feel about my attachment. Pay sucks. Location far.. Mum gave me an analogy of why me and Fungwee was posted to Shenton Way.. Mum said, 'is your the other friend pretty?' Jean said, 'uh huh....' Mum said, ' there is the answer.. adults and kids like you look things in different angle.. do you think TP would post someone who dunno how to dress and present themselves to CBD district? that would freakin ruin TP's reputation!' Jean said,'SOOOOOOOO.. you are trying to say that your daughter, me is something like a flower vase?' Mum said, 'Bingo.' *tsk. what a thing to sae. excited yet very reluctant at the same time. its like so cheap labour. argh. Friday, September 07, 2007
Thursday, September 06, 2007
wednesday was a freaking long and realy tired day I swear. Day started at 0830hrs. ken woke me up. Bathe, changed, cooked simple lunch for siblings, the guys came and picked me up. headed for Bugis to drop ken's brother at school, Jean ken qianhao and zon headed for 'si ma lu' temple to pray. this is where qianhao turns out to be a girl by the auntie who sells flower outside the temple.. laughs.. waited for jianhao weijian jeric to come and we headed for Yishun dam. and when was the last time i freakin hear the morning nature sound.. initally wanted to eat kuay chap at YioChuKang.. but its not open.. so lunch was settled at the hawker itself.. uh huh.. after which headed to Covent to fetch valerie.. followed by some Brownie after that.. finally! GOLF! weather was damn warm and everyone was feeling sticky. ken got quite agro 'cause he had a freakin summon.. tskkkk.. oh well.. after golf.. headed to east coast park.. started rotting around.. bowling was next.. and... i do not noe how to freakin bowl.. yea.. almmost got bowl by the ball.. laughs... after 45mins of bowling.. headed for Troy's house.. ken troy qianhao went for swimming. and the rest was again rotting around in their own world. evening 8plus 9.. headed for Jalan Kayu for food again.. and yishun dam again! shakehead.. 11plus came and went back to Covent to drop Valerie off and i went back home.. was freakin stuck at the AXS machine to pay bills and when Jean got home... 12midnight.. freakin tiring dae.. i swear.. attachment at Lingua Tech.. freakin Shenton way.. 0900-1800hrs Mon to fridae.. FREAKIN FAR!!!! arghhhhhhh          |
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