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Jean, 29091988I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Friday, May 30, 2008
had pretty long days recently. work and work. Im doing my best. I see it coming. Real Soon. Who says Real Estate has no linkage to Marketing? After Perry's 2 hours of 'lecture' and role play. Its much more interesting than what I thought it would be. For once, I really wish that I am 21 for now. growls* I believe, I can do it better than anyone else. and I will when time comes. (: I cant wait for next week's class again, Im feeling all in! Injured uncle admitted to CGH. heard that he is in pretty bad shape. all this claims and reports, Ive to go settle for him. had enough headaches for this. all the cousins are shits and useless freaks. to the extend my mum has to settle all for him, WHICH means that IM gonna be the one helping to get all the things done. good one. nothing much. just that work got me a little sick, suffering from heat and cold going in and out of my body, making my body is a lill upset at times. baby's down with gum infection. poor thing. thats all for now! (: I love pulling your ears. I love rubbing your nose. I love stretching your small eyes. I love kissing your lips. I still love everything about you, I'm loving you more. Wednesday, May 28, 2008
 tskk.. Jason send me this picture, and commented that my hair looks like this. laughs..*happy 4 mths! XD but I didnt get to meet up with bf today 'cause we are both too tied down with work, and feeling all so tired after a long day. Poor bf, 'cause he wanted to bring me to bangkok badly in July, thus working so hard. seeing him so tired everyday, heartpain!! ): but nevertheless, we would be celebrating his birthday and our 6mths anniversary together in July.. HAPPY! nth much today, went back office to settle some stuff for my injured uncle. went to Sengkang with jason to des's appointment. Next to Compass Point for a walk in Best Denki and to Starbucks for a coffee before heading home. was on the phone moments ago with baby and he went to sleep le. Feeling pretty shag after the day. Goodnight everyone. Monday, May 26, 2008
Sometimes when I hate to believe that the world is small, but this time, its a damn classic example that I would have to suck my thumb and admit that the world is really small. OR rather, Singapore IS small. I was bored, and blog hopping around the people that I know from my list, and further hopping from there. and so I was reading through Kenny's blog, den linked to Eileen's. And oh Kenny! I hadnt tell you something, you've got yourself a cute & nice girlfriend, so please be good to her eh! *laughs..* OH.. as I was saying, yup, was blog hopping.. Den I went to read my secondary school friends blog.. ok, I didnt mean to be so bitchy. but.. This is like really Friendster Friendster. ITS ALL LINKED! SCARY! and to my suprise.. After 2 years.. Now then Ive realise tat my secondary 2's ex bf's current gf is Kenny's current gf which is Eileen's current classmate! and tat the ex bf had currently broken off with the gf! EH! damn small world! kao, this post really means nothing. It was really due to pure boredom 'cause Im passing time waiting for my beloved darlin' to meet me and thus so. damn la. I dun even consider it as ex-bf as it only lasted for like 3 weeks? LOL. and it was during I was Sec 2? kao.. so young la.. but I mean, thinking back is like damn funny.. wahahaaahahah.... buay tahan.. No wonder bf always says Im horny, tskkkk..... AM I??? LOL... omfg..
Sunday, May 25, 2008
 HELLO viwawa.COM! =D cute huh.. this had been the brain teaser for days and its something that Ive never got bored off.. This was introduced by desmond and jason. and dammit. Ive never gotten my eyes and fingers off the labtop whenever I had the time. tsk! friday night after work. was out with working collegues down to 'Memories' at Outram Park. all thanks to boss, who kidnapped me off when I was not guarded. After office, all of us went forward to take the train together. I rejected them and i didnt want to go down at all, 'cause I dont really like drinking nights anymore. I would rather spend my time resting, sleeping, rotting away with darlin'. and in fact, ive already prepared to make my way home and wait for sweetie to be off from the range. they alighted at DobbyGhuat MRT station, thus I alighted at CityHall, crossed over and was waiting. Concurrently, I was bored. So I pulled out my hearpiece and starting to stuff it into my ears. and all of a sudden. Someone shouted 'DA QIANG!' from my back and pulled my labtop bag away from me. I got a shock 'cause this fella didnt shout very soft [-.-] and I turn back. my boss was laughing away and running away with my labtop bag, so that I would not go home and would go along with them. wad the?? YOU WIN. sighh. Imagine a 29 year old man doing this. and people staring at us. How would you feel? Im like really left with no choice and took the train with them to Outram Park. and they STILL refuses to return me my labtop. good one. eat.drink.sing.play. waited for darlin' to come and pick me. had a litte commotion here and there. and i reach home at five in the morning. Goodness. its been so many donkey million years that Ive went outside to drink. Im really really really grown up and getting real sick and tired of such places. SAVE ME from these people!!!!! Im not saying that they are bad people. I dun care how active their night lives are, how good drinkers they are but I dare say Most of my collegues and friends all are alcoholics. Just that, please, cut down on asking me out to drink. shakehead. but again.. tskkkkk... Tagged by VINCENT! *tskk* Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. 1. What disappoints you the most? When Human takes me for granted. 2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket? HOHO! Paris! best if possible can sponsor all my expenses for this! hahaha.. XD 3. What's your favorite thing to do? rot&slack and rot&slack with my baby! 4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? 16. What do you do when you're alone?
18. One word to describe yourself. 19. What school am i studying now? 20.if u can choose 1 person to stay on this world with u who will that be? Im going to be nice and not tag anyone else. Laughs* and again.. after long days of the week, nothing beats the feeling from waking up in your arms. (: Thursday, May 22, 2008
baby didnt do well for his pro test again. ouhwell. Its ok baby.. You can always do it again.. No worries! perserve on ya! (: whooOooOooo, Im invited to Telly and Valerie's wedding on the 7th June 2008 @ Suntec Ballroom. omg. the food gonna sucks big time! lol! HSR Dinner and Dance was held there too.. Food took long to be served, sharkfin's watery, noodles were bland and many more.. So that nite i didnt really bother to eat alot also.. Im praying for food to be nicer at Telly's wedding.. laughs* but its ok.. Ill take lots and lots of photos that night.. Its been so long that me and baby had taken pictures together! tsk! 27th's coming again! wheeeEEeee! =D Stress always comes in when its the money issue.. but other than that.. Im a happy lady with a wonderful and always slpy bf! Im satisfied. Tuesday, May 20, 2008
baby's having his pro-test early in the morning tml, thus he's being tucked in bed early. All the best sweetie.. (: Early morning, along with mummy, was down to bernie's school for Meet The Parents Session.. Shakehead, growing kids are really headaches and especially when he is having his PSLE this year. Sigh.. Why do I have to worry for such things too?? Took bus down to Office. As I was on Bus Number 8 to ToaPayoh, I saw all the juniors boarding the bus, listening to their MP3s, chatting happily and carrying the piles of lecture notes on their hands. LAUGHS! IM OVER & DONE WITH!!! and probably I look even younger than them! lol.. but looking at them, reminds me of the 3 years of my poly life. I look at them, smiled to myself and continue closing my eye lids to rest for the rest of my bus journey. this sat, if im not working, Ive decided to go down and 'hand my resignation letter'.. After thinking and deciding for so long, I think its really time to make a decision of my own.. They keep saying its up to me, yet I was still lost, didnt really know what to do or how should I go about doing it. Its pointless dragging on stuffs, cause I know at the end of the day, its not going to benefit me at all. Hours, days and nights being spent there, Ive learnt lots of stuffs. I admit, I learn things much more slower than others, or rather, some times I really refuse to learn. 'Cause I know all the complications behind. Yet on the other hand, I've never had a single bit of regret choosing to walk this path initally. Through these, Ive learnt and experienced things and issues that not everyone would get to expose to and learn. In fact, I would need to thank all those, whom along this journey, taught me stuffs. I believe, Im of no use there for now, 'cause my knowledge is really limited. Plus, I would really need to focus on work, especially if I would to choose this as my career. The rest of my time would be given to my loved ones especially bf, family and rest. [Rest as in resting in this case.] Because why? Without them, I am Nothing. Read me, its like really N-O-T-H-I-N-G. and besides, I do not have extra time for friends, leisure and entertainment. whats more? There's really not much time or extra energy, plus the distance tat I could afford to exert on, unlike the past anymore. I dunno if anyone would really understand and see the reasons why, but I know what I am doing. As much as I wanted to stay and share through the ups and downs of everyone together like how Ive been doing in the past, I really wont be able to do that anymore. whatever it is, be it anyone were to understand or not, my decision has been made. Im just waiting for a chance, to put this message across to the 'people' that needs to be explained to. ouhwell. I HAVE TWO PAINFUL ULCERS IN MY MOUTH!! *ouch.....!* and ya, I swear I had really totally forgotten about Graduation Ceremony until Kek message me todae to ask me about the date and time. For goodness sake, Ive totally couldnt even remember a single shit. shakehead. and yea, Im not attending. Too late anyway. Laughs. (: Sunday, May 18, 2008
If I have a choice, I would never want to make the same mistake again. Once is enough, I do not wish to go through the mental torture again. So countlessly, I told myself, that I'm not afraid..But... I really hope that Im not afraid.. Saturday, May 17, 2008
Waiting for darlin' to reach home, I've just reached home after weibin's grandfather's wake. Just a short day with darlin' today, but its ok! Im always home wishing that he's always by my side with me to spend and share all my moments together. (: darlin, though we do sometimes have small lill tiffs, and sometimes we both get ridiculous with each other. But Im really glad and happy that tiffs dont hold more than a night away. deep down within, you know that I really do love you lots and you are the one that I want to spend the rest of my days with. We are going through some tough days now, but as long as you are with me together, we will pull it through. (: goodnight everyone! Thursday, May 15, 2008
whole day so cocked up. I feel so sucky. Early in the morning 9am, boss called. He thought I would be early, 'cause initally was suppose to meet Angeline to go to office early morning as she has debrief at 10am. In the end it was cancelled. I didnt want to sound so mean, and I dun want to make it feel that Im making use of her, so she initated to meet at 1030am at Bedok Platform. so I agreed. Boss called and was sort of angry with me. and SO, I apologised, bathe, changed and rush to down to office. Was rushing my way through here and there, Ive realised that I had left my cardigan on the chair. and which, Im wearing tube. WELL DONE. So I was left to freeze on the train and back in office. (: Reached office, did my stuffs. and one agent really pissed me off to the max. Ive waited for her for hours and hours, just to get her part done. and in the end. from morning wait till evening, in the end everything cocked up. Appointment cancelled, deal cancelled. and I have to talk to my owner and account for it. WELL DONE. I swear I was damn pissed. For wasting my time, my messages and my saliva. Bloody shit. This one really got me losing my top. Since appointment and deal was called off, I pack my stuffs and left the office for home. Reached Bedok Interchange and I went out of the station to have some nicotine. I was sitting down there, thinkin of the shag and ridiculous day, an Indian guy wearing brown strip shirt, black pants and shoes walked up to me. Indian Guy [speaking with a pathetic face and the irritating accent of his], 'Madam, Ive just lost my wallet and I cant find it. I live at Bukit Panjang and I have no money with me now. To take train from here to Bukit Panjang, I need $3.90. But if you have, can you give me some money for me to go home?' **Apparently, he looked so much older than me and he calls me a Madam**Roll Eyes****
Me [cannot be really bothered], 'I dun have notes with me now.' HELLO! check out the new skin. So nice simple and sweet... just like me!! LOL! oh well.. pardon me.. Went a lill hay-wired and energetic and the wrong timing, and its like 0240hrs now. Bf just went off to bed while Im still here 'cause I just got the blogskin done.. back from viewing in the evening with Angeline, baby came over to pick me up. Concurrently sweet enough to drop her off at Century Square and we headed down to Laguna to meet Elvin. Had cheese mushroom prata at Simpang Bedok and we went on our own ways. bf asked me a question which I find it quite out of the blue, very silly, yet very cute, yet super sweet. and that caught me laughing at him for quite some time! =D and I swear... Im gonna remember this question till the day we arrived at the next stage of our lives! lol.. loves! (: i love my silly boy! Monday, May 12, 2008
these four days had been really draggy without baby around. and finally he's back. (: he bought me checkered pants for work, 2 pretty sunday dresses for me to slip on casually with slippers, and 3 belts for me. thanks for the sweet thoughts baby. hugs. (: Im looking forward to our trip in July. Sometimes, Human really needs a lill Luck at times, thats what I feel Sometimes no matter how hard You work, how much effort You put in, with just a lill lack of Luck. it all goes down to the drain again. It will never work. and again. Im feeling useless. Is it really something got to do with LOFT, really something that I shouldnt had started with? or is it just plainly to be my Dreams. its hard not to feel dishearted. The passion and motivation is always burning strong. but I just do feel helpless everytime it fails Ending the day with empty handed, I feel so damn lousy. Probably its time to give up on the dreams of the dream. and get something else to work on? *screwed* Im stuck. Wednesday, May 07, 2008
well hello! bf's off to Bangkok tml morning. ): He'll be back soon on Sunday but I can only see him Monday night after work! ): Im gonna miss him badly.. oh well! Monday, May 05, 2008
WOOHOO! I know that my blog is freakingly boring and lacking of pictures. but please pardon me.. Im lazy to post pictures.. =D FINALLY bought my new labtop, though its not some really good shits.. but due to having wonderful friends at Best Denki, they helped me upgrade my ram to 3Gz at least. laughs.. Free upgrade,free printer, 4Gz thumbdrive, free webcam, plus free mouse.. WHERE TO GET?????!! and in addition.. Ive bough Safety Five, which is Warranty for 5 years for Best Denki.. SHIOK! and I got a nice bag from Charles&Keith to dump all my stuffs in for work! LAGI HAPPY! =D While having lunch with JLO [Jason Low.. lol!] and Alvin, I was talking with this malay uncle.. and i got another listing for sale! damn shiok.. WOW! plus my new white and green Puma golf cardigan and new black heels that baby bought for me.. I suddenly feel like that happiest girl on Earth.. ya.. partly is because I hadnt bought new stuffs for quite some time.. lol! but I feel that ache for the money spent.. and oh! baby is jealous of a 17 year old....awwwwwww.... LOLOLOL! =D =D come on sweetie..... you know i love you..~ hahahahhahhaa... BOO! |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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