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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Jean, 29091988I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Exits
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
baby's having his pro-test early in the morning tml, thus he's being tucked in bed early. All the best sweetie.. (: Early morning, along with mummy, was down to bernie's school for Meet The Parents Session.. Shakehead, growing kids are really headaches and especially when he is having his PSLE this year. Sigh.. Why do I have to worry for such things too?? Took bus down to Office. As I was on Bus Number 8 to ToaPayoh, I saw all the juniors boarding the bus, listening to their MP3s, chatting happily and carrying the piles of lecture notes on their hands. LAUGHS! IM OVER & DONE WITH!!! and probably I look even younger than them! lol.. but looking at them, reminds me of the 3 years of my poly life. I look at them, smiled to myself and continue closing my eye lids to rest for the rest of my bus journey. this sat, if im not working, Ive decided to go down and 'hand my resignation letter'.. After thinking and deciding for so long, I think its really time to make a decision of my own.. They keep saying its up to me, yet I was still lost, didnt really know what to do or how should I go about doing it. Its pointless dragging on stuffs, cause I know at the end of the day, its not going to benefit me at all. Hours, days and nights being spent there, Ive learnt lots of stuffs. I admit, I learn things much more slower than others, or rather, some times I really refuse to learn. 'Cause I know all the complications behind. Yet on the other hand, I've never had a single bit of regret choosing to walk this path initally. Through these, Ive learnt and experienced things and issues that not everyone would get to expose to and learn. In fact, I would need to thank all those, whom along this journey, taught me stuffs. I believe, Im of no use there for now, 'cause my knowledge is really limited. Plus, I would really need to focus on work, especially if I would to choose this as my career. The rest of my time would be given to my loved ones especially bf, family and rest. [Rest as in resting in this case.] Because why? Without them, I am Nothing. Read me, its like really N-O-T-H-I-N-G. and besides, I do not have extra time for friends, leisure and entertainment. whats more? There's really not much time or extra energy, plus the distance tat I could afford to exert on, unlike the past anymore. I dunno if anyone would really understand and see the reasons why, but I know what I am doing. As much as I wanted to stay and share through the ups and downs of everyone together like how Ive been doing in the past, I really wont be able to do that anymore. whatever it is, be it anyone were to understand or not, my decision has been made. Im just waiting for a chance, to put this message across to the 'people' that needs to be explained to. ouhwell. I HAVE TWO PAINFUL ULCERS IN MY MOUTH!! *ouch.....!* and ya, I swear I had really totally forgotten about Graduation Ceremony until Kek message me todae to ask me about the date and time. For goodness sake, Ive totally couldnt even remember a single shit. shakehead. and yea, Im not attending. Too late anyway. Laughs. (: |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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