Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile Jean, 29091988 I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Exits Facebook Hear this Music Playlist at MixPod.com Archives May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 December 2009 March 2010 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Thursday, May 15, 2008 whole day so cocked up. I feel so sucky. Early in the morning 9am, boss called. He thought I would be early, 'cause initally was suppose to meet Angeline to go to office early morning as she has debrief at 10am. In the end it was cancelled. I didnt want to sound so mean, and I dun want to make it feel that Im making use of her, so she initated to meet at 1030am at Bedok Platform. so I agreed. Boss called and was sort of angry with me. and SO, I apologised, bathe, changed and rush to down to office. Was rushing my way through here and there, Ive realised that I had left my cardigan on the chair. and which, Im wearing tube. WELL DONE. So I was left to freeze on the train and back in office. (: Reached office, did my stuffs. and one agent really pissed me off to the max. Ive waited for her for hours and hours, just to get her part done. and in the end. from morning wait till evening, in the end everything cocked up. Appointment cancelled, deal cancelled. and I have to talk to my owner and account for it. WELL DONE. I swear I was damn pissed. For wasting my time, my messages and my saliva. Bloody shit. This one really got me losing my top. Since appointment and deal was called off, I pack my stuffs and left the office for home. Reached Bedok Interchange and I went out of the station to have some nicotine. I was sitting down there, thinkin of the shag and ridiculous day, an Indian guy wearing brown strip shirt, black pants and shoes walked up to me. Indian Guy [speaking with a pathetic face and the irritating accent of his], 'Madam, Ive just lost my wallet and I cant find it. I live at Bukit Panjang and I have no money with me now. To take train from here to Bukit Panjang, I need $3.90. But if you have, can you give me some money for me to go home?' **Apparently, he looked so much older than me and he calls me a Madam**Roll Eyes**** Me [cannot be really bothered], 'I dun have notes with me now.' Indian Guy, 'If you have coins also can, no problem. Please please, I really need your help.' Me [not pitying him], 'how much do you need?' Indian Guy, '$1.60! I need total $3.90, then the rest I go borrow from other people' I was thinking inside, WTF??? Farking that the $1.60 and fark off dun disturb me. Me [scarastically and while digging for my wallet in my bag], 'You lost your wallet, so have you report to the police?' *dead silence for a few seconds.* Indian Guy, 'errrr..... no....' thus I kept quiet.. I gave him $1.60 and I thought that he would fark off. Instead, he said to me, 'Thank you very much. Can you spare me a stick?' On the spot, I feel like slapping him to the max. Plus on the fact I was alreadi feeling damn screwed. argh!!!!! wtf was I doing? I really couldnt find the energy to screw him on the spot. Plus I was alone. So i shut my mouth up and I rejected giving him anything thing else. He thank me and he walked off. Happily. he approached another couple a distance away from him. To beg for his one stick and the rest of his like $2.30? to go home? fark!! I walked off after that, I really really cannot be bothered anymore. I walked past him begging from the couple. and he was pointing to me and talkin to the couple. I think that he is convincing them to give him the rest of his $2.30(???) for his train ride home? and telling them that I was nice enough to give him $1.60? WELL DONE! once again... Reached home, bathe, rot and rot and rot. In the end wasnt meeting bf, I feel more sian. DEN! my mozilla firefox and Internet Explorer was really nice to me (though I donated some $1.60 to a complete idiot) by not letting me view pages like my Hotmail and Friendster. and Ive spent hours fixing it. till now its not done yet. WELL DONE AGAIN!! and so....... this is my wonderful 15th May 2008! Congrats..
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay