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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
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Jean, 29091988I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Exits
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Saturday, November 22, 2008
work has been really hectic for this week and Im really exhausted. This would have to drag till the end of the year. I really prayed for this year to end quickly and awaits for the new year to come. yet on the other hand, im having insufficient time to complete all my tasks to meet deadlines. I really need to club it all out. really. I've lost myself. who i am now is not who i used to be. there's good and bad. it just that i refuse to take it down to the fact that this is the life that i am leading. the old me has die-ed off. jumping up and down, running here and there. Life's never the same anymore. I'm happy with b'fren. but other than that, I cant find those cheerfulness back again. I'm not laughing as much as I used to, I'm not as friendly as I used to. To be frank, i've realised that i've shut myself out from alot of things and people out there. its really contridicting. tell me if this is a good sign. it may be a part of growing into adulthood stage of life. but, i dunno. something seems to be lacking. or am i just pretending to be someone whom i am not. hopes and dreams of life. so what are they. are hopes really just hopes. and dreams are dreams that happen when you are sleeping with your body resting and brains still working? i dun even know what i am working now for. though work's both great and boring. its contridicting too. its just so hard to describe in words. b'fren spoke to me last night. and bombed me with an 'out-to-the-space' question. i was stunned to the maximum i swear, but i hid my emotions. that question makes me ponder and set me thinking non-stop again. the conversation still rang in my head till this very moment. it kind of scared me. i just hope he didnt remember what he said or things will get pretty ugly. im really really heartbroken, that till this very day. you are still not the one who understands me the best. on the account that i really do love you, i'll try to pull it through with you once again. he's trying his best to protect me and give it all i want. thats very nice, and thats why i love him so much. (: OK! emotions getting real hay-wired at this point of blog-entry. Jean's signing off. Good day! there is not much issues between us, 'cause the problems doesnt lie with us. do you see it? |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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